happy birthday singapore! once again, it's singapore's national day!!!

todae, at home, studying. haiz. so sian. sian sian sian. sianess is bad.... cos it means tt he will occupy my thoughts. true enough, i nearly went mad. darn... i shd go get myself a concussion, serious enough so i can forget abt him. after all, he doesnt seem to remb my existence anymore....a new life for him, i dont matter. oh well. wad to do... he's e same as everyone else hu have threw me one side when they dun need me anymore... i've been blind. again. a fool. so blind.

thanks zhiyu and tingren for talking and listening to me... and crapping. thanks alot. zhiyu.... dun think so badly of yourself, u've helped more ppl and have left an impact on our lives. i think u're e pillar of support for most of us. think better of yourself ba. plus, human behaviour is not such an easy thing to understand, we're all complex ppl. if it was so easy to understand, so many of us wont be having some human relationship probs rite now. tingren....u like mi la. we shd go wash eye together one day. both of em oso jerks. dun blame urself,k?

din get to watch fireworks ytd.... sigh. they decided not to go...sob sob. and i was looking forward to it. oh well. my feelings nvr really mattered to em anyway.

skipping lunch todae...somehow i juz dun have the appetite to eat. haiz. can u believe it? i actually wrote a poem on abortion. ha. muz be too much of analysing lit. sian.

i miss assumptionites!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss miss miss them so much.... i wish i could meet up w em.... then at least it'll take my mind off him.... sigh. oh well... have mi swenson's lunch date w lay ping to look forward to... ha. thinking of asking steven and jun hong along. :D

k, tt all fer now. chaoz.

Imagine - me

imagine a woman
with lips soft and full
her voice sweet and melodious
as she sings me to sleep

imagine a woman
with hands smooth yet rough
stroking and patting me
as she cradles me while i sleep

imagine a family
full of warmth, love and laughter
oh! how i long to be a part
i cant wait to be out

imagine how your life could be
if i were allowed to be in it
alas! such things will not be
my mum she killed me
before i could see