will be away at arts camp the next 5 days. wont be updating. after which: sat i have a full day of tuition, sun i have rag till tues. which leaves wed for myself to rest (if im lucky) and erm thurs for training hopefully. I NEED MY TRAINING!!! argh. argh. argh. but darn i cant cos of rag orientation. sigh. oh wells, we shall see. and kendo tournament on sunday!!! *screams the head off* why why why did i i even sign-up for it??? i dont feel prepared. i'll prob be going there and get knocked out and then sit and watch others compete. heh

that's all. i am tired. i need a vacation. seriously. even being in malaysia isnt providing me with a much-needed respite. im still working. gah.




a normal person's 3 meals: breakfast, lunch and dinner.

mine and gerri's 3 meals: brunch, lunner and dipper!!
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i'm in malaysia now!! hehe~ ahhhh the thing about being here means shopping shopping shopping and eating eating eating!!! haha!!! the food here is so yummylicious, and i know i went on and on abt it eons before, but really! hehe~ and today, there was nothing to do and since my older cousin had to come down and wait for her bro to finish his paper (too bad he cant join us), we went shopping at gurney plaza after breakfast!!! bwehehe!!! shopping shopping shopping!!! so wonderful and cheaper than singapore! hehe~

alrighties, g2g think up of cheers for arts camp. i became the cheers ic for my og agains -_-" heh~ ok going to go... hehe~




in school now for rag. heh~ din sleep, so i am in la la land!!! whee~~~~~~

rag's busy, rag's packed and rag's gonna make me stuck permanently in la la land!!! hee!!!!! looking at the schedule, damn stressed lah! have so many things to do, with so little time. highly doubt i'll be training much nows, till rad day is over. sighz.

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met tr at bugis yesterday for lunch w wenhui. her bd yesterday! happy birthday (belated) tingren!!!! hehe~

she liked her pressie. goodies!!! it was a strawberry handmade er box. haha~ very cute. hehe~ and as expected, she gave me lingerie. i think the term is knickers? haha~ black w pink sequins and a pink band! hehe~ so nice. haha~ then i later asked her if im supposed to be wearing ultra low jeans or ultra short skirts to show off the sequins. haha~ ok lame i know. :P

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ramica bbq later!!! yayys! aha~ and then gg to go home to rest, tuition tmr morning!!! and then, hopefully, can go for training. if rag ends on schedule, if not.... sigh. thrn fri to mon, its malaysia-bound!!! and then mon to fri, its arts camp!!! ahhh!!! that's it, im gonna be permanently lack of sleep too. hehe~

okies, g2g, ciao!!!!




had kendo grading todays. we all passed, but im 8th kyu. most of the others from my batch are 7th kyu except nicholas, who is the only one with 6th kyu. goodies for nic! we keep saying he'll be the next captain from our batch haha~

hmmms, someone asked why is it i couldn't be happy with my 8th kyu. at least it was a jump from no kyu to 8th kyu, and not remaining as no grade or simply getting 9th kyu. the thing is, despite my seemingly always cheerful personality, i am never quite happy with things relating to myself - including results. and things i work for, i tend to be harsher on myself. even if i were to get 7th kyu along with the majority, i wont be happy. i never will be. if people knew my past, they would know why. it's this refusal to settle for what im given that drives me, that enables me to be where i am today. i always feel like i have to prove myself, to people, to myself, to the world. and i have to justify that i am worthy of achieving something. so, i am not happy with 8th kyu although i am glad that i can now write a grade on a kendo form rather than a dash. heh~ so pardon me, but i highly doubt i would bother to work harder if im happy with where i am now. if i have ever been happy with where i am, i wouldnt even be in nus right now, would probably be out there somewhere working, maybe in mac still or something. and i am not happy with just being in nus either. i need my goals, and my goal for kendo is 3rd kyu. whether or not i want to continue after graduation, at least getting a 3rd kyu would allow me to continue after graduating from nus, should i decide to. so yah, i am not happy about 8th kyu and i've thought about it and this is prolly the best reason i can give to answer your question.

anyways, thanks to michelle and her family for allowing me to stayover at her place before the grading!!! thanks!!!! and omg mich's house is sooooooo big!!!! personally, i wouldnt want such a big house. the stairs are enough to kill, muahaha~ but i want a house by/overlooking the sea!! hee~ *ahem ahem*

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happy father's day to all fathers out there!!!!

bro's bd tmr, gonna go shopping with him and a few of his friends. -_-" what to do, i promised to go shopping with him on mon and get his pressie. sighz..... he has to bring his friends along though. heh~ oh wells, on the bright side, it means i can go roam around alone after im done with his pressie shopping. muahaha~

jamie gave me centrepoint vouchers for my bd!!!!! with luck, i'll have enough time to go shopping there after dealing with my bro!!! hehe~ with vouchers!!! haha~ thanks jamie!!!

and i have my bd treat from zhiyu le! tcc at holland v wasn't open yet (they open only at 2.30pm :(; tr!!! i want to go there for the coffee muahaha~) so we went over to nydc for lunch instead. and i havent been there in so many years!!! haha~ so i was like exclaiming (like a bimbo or alien i guess)," they've downsized the sandwiches!!! it used to be bigger!!!!!" or "they've downsized the coffee!!! *pout*" haha~ but anw, thanks zy!!!!

and i think that's all. for now. hahas~ sowie, cant really think right now. soooo tired. and glad that grading's over!!! hoot!!! time to prepare for arts camp and arts rag and east-west tourney and matric fair and cmad!!!! eeps~

i swear i will grow more white hairs after this hols. heh~




ym is having diarrhoea. and to make things worse, she is having the time of the month, which decided to hound her today. and her blister came out during last night's training, leaving a tender area behind. and her knee injury is not getting any better, in fact, said knee decided to "pop" all of a sudden last night, for no apparent reason at all! and so ym is damn scared for grading. *grumbles*

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recalling last night's training, here's what sensei mentioned to me during training:

during kirikaeshi, he told me (and then i realised) that after my men cut, i tend to come in slanted for the tai-a-tare. and so i kept doing the same men cut until it was straight, before completing the kirikaeshi set. hope i remember that for grading!

next, during men-uchi practice, my hands (still) tend to drop after the cut itself. and so i have to put in more focus in remembering to keep my hands straight after the men cut, and not let it drop.

and then, when we were doing extra dou cuts after training, he mentioned that i have to be more daring and make stronger dou cuts. hmmm, i guess he means more strength? as in more strength behind the cut? perhaps i was rather cautious during dou cuts, i have a tendency to be afraid that i will hit somewhere else where it hurts. so i think that is why my dou cuts are not that powerful. hmmm, will keep that in mind.

sensei also mentioned in another training session about my kote. apparently, i could stretch further during my kote cuts. hmmm, i guess my old weakness came back. last night, he didn't say anything about my kote, so i hope that it means its better? will keep that in mind during grading as well.

taicho also asked me to ensure that i do my kirikaeshi slower, cos he noticed that when i do fast, my tenouchi is missing, but when i do it slower, my tenouchi is there. but im afraid that if i do too slow, then not good. i did try to slow down my pace after that, but sensei asked me to do faster, and he didnt say anything about the tenouchi thing. oh no.... how how?

and no one said anything to me about my cuts after the mock grading practice!!! i feel so sad.... why? there must be something i have to improve on.... hmmms.

oh wells. getting the jitters pre-grading. hope that it doesnt get so bad on the actual day itself that i mess up. no no no!!! cannot!

and i solemnly promise that i will be more committed to rag after the grading. so sorry raggers for neglecting you guys!!! thanks to those who were really understanding, especially jingyi and wenhui! thanks a lot!!! hope you guys have fun during the karang guni collection!




i wasn't going to let it affect me but i guess in the end, it still does. it kinda hurts knowing that your friends out there don't find you trustworthy at all. hmms. perhaps it all boils down with me being too, what is it people always say?, oh yah, outgoing. too many friends, too much interaction with people, and i guess i fall under the category of "loud-mouth, fun friends that one just can't trust to keep her mouth shut" or something like that. sad. just when i change, people start stepping on me again. it doesn't make any sense. when you're all silent and withdrawn and in your own world, people say that you're some stupid freaking loner, some bitch or spread some nasty rumours about you or something. and yet, when you're that hyper, cheerful person who goes out of the way to make new friends and attempt to make everyone comfortable and happy, people say that you're some sort of social butterfly, or flirt, or someone who can't be trusted, or whatever. what is it with humans anyway? for all the intelligence they claim to possess, humans are really just plain stupid.

and really, its not my fault that i find it so much easier to interact with guys than girls. for one, guys dont go on and on about really insignificant stuff like makeup and cute guys and hot shirts and whatever. two, they dont hang out in cliques. well, most of the guys i know anyway. they have no qualms about hanging with different people, just crapping the day (and night) through. the same cant be said about the girls. its always either "you're in or you're out", which kinda explains why i don't really have any close girl friends, period. three: guys dont really bitch, and when they do its just so darn funny and enjoyable. and they are so easy to talk to. and well they really do know how to brighten up your day, especially when you're feeling really down or something. if i were to talk to a girl (generally speaking), the person would most likely be going on and on and on about some stuff or the other and i will be like, "hello? can you like keep quiet and leave me alone now???" in my head. so yeah, i connect easier with the guys than i do with girls, but that does not mean that im a flirt, and that does not mean that im easy or whatever. just thought i'd clear that up before people actually start saying it to other people and ruining my reputation.

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thanks to lay ping and tingren for their bd pressies! lp gave me a erm really cute and er wierd necklace-hp kinda thing. and erm yah. tr has yet to give me my pressie but i already know what she's gonna get. ha! lingerie-related. hope i dont faint when i see it, haha~

shopped with lp today. man, i miss shopping in aussie. the clothes there are really special and most importantly, not ridiculously made SMALL. like wth?! shopping in singapore, esp in places like far east and bugis village, is just plain unfriendly to bigger-sized people. and im not just talking about tummies. hell, most of the clothes can only fit in my head and a hand. and they're supposed to be L. wth! so damn frustrating shopping for stuff in singapore. serious blow to a person's confidence too, really. they should just get rid of such ridiculous shops. i miss shopping in aussie. at least i dont have to worry about whether or not im able to actually get a head and two arms in and can concentrate on whether the clothes actually look good on me. geez. needless to say, i got pretty sick of far east really fast, in like half an hour while waiting for lp.

thank goodness for isetan at wisma then. at least the clothes there are wearable. usually. i bought an orange halter for meself (which lp picked out and which she then proclaimed suited me really well and that i should and must buy it! haha~). but i still would rather shop in aussie. ahhhh....

other stuff i bought: tr's bd pressie (sorry girl, still not gonna tell ya haha~ keep on guessing!), a small pouch for my mp4 stuff and earrings! hee~

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it's late, i wanna sleep, and i shall leave you with the lyrics of this song. haven't done this in a while.

Addicted - Kelly Clarkson

It’s like you’re a drug
It’s like you’re a demon I can’t face down
It’s like I’m stuck
It’s like I’m running from you all the time
And I know I let
You have all the power
It’s like the only company I seek
Is misery all around

It’s like you’re a leach
Sucking the life from me
It’s like I can’t breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you
Have all the power
And I realize I’m never gonna
Quit you over time

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

It’s like I’m lost
It’s like I’m giving up slowly
It’s like you’re a ghost
That’s haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in
My head are mine alone
And I know I’ll never change my ways
If I don’t give you up now

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me

I’m hooked on you
I need a fix, I can’t take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I’ll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that’s it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It’s like I can’t breathe
It’s like I can’t see anything
Nothing but you
I’m addicted to you
It’s like I can’t think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You’ve taken over me
It’s like I’m not me
It’s like I’m not me




went down to school for rag today. carried the stuff from rag house to our storage room. omg, so heavy!!! haha~ i was joking that before my kendo training starts, i already have no energy to whack ppl le. heh~

anyway, the raggers bought me a birthday cake!!! heh~ sorry jingyi and jianwu, but i sorta guessed what was going on. hehe~ but still, it was nice!!! the way they went about trying to surprise me was so sweet... hehe~ i teared... awww. haha~ and and and the cake was CHOCOLATE TIRAMISU!!!!! woot!!! my favorite cake! tiramisu!!! how did you guys know i love tiramisu???? ahhhh!!! heh~

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kendo training was alright. heh~ getting ready for grading, hope i'll do well! so scared....

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oh and i recieved a birthday pressie from siew and mun wei! a spanking new wallet! and its pink!!! and the best part is i dont have to get a new wallet for myself! haha~ how smart of them. hehe~

that's all. gonna sleep. ciao!




and so, i turn another year older. i have hit the 2-0! gah! heh~ in the words of a certain chihwahwa, i have more white hairs. haha~

thanks to all who sent me birthday wishes!!! my kendo peeps, nadiah, chee chang, edmund, johnson, yick siew, jamie, aaron, jingyi, chong han and carrie and the peeps from RAMICA (we rock!!!! WHOOOOO!!!!), nisa (yay! u finally remb my birthday haha~), xinyi, mun wei, suyu, michelle, chee min, lionel, keyou, chihwahwa and most importantly MY FAMILY!!! hehe~ they wished me exactly at 12mn. haha~ thanks thanks!!!! and if i left out anyone, do forgive ms short-term memory here (old already), and thank you all so much!!! :)

today was rather simple. met jamie at marina square at 12.30pm, went shopping and watched a movie!!!! i bought two tops from FOX!!! hehe~ it was buy 2 tops and enjoy 50% discount for each top, and since both of my tops are of the same price, it was like 2 for the price of 1 or buy one get one free. haha~ and then, cos my dad has free GV movie tickets, me and jamie used them to watch XMEN 3. woot! i love xmen, and i love rogue!!! my fav xmen character. sadly, there wasn't much of her, but still. i am so sad that she chose to gave up her powers!!!! argh!!! but i understand why. i mean, would you want to keep your powers when having them means the inability to have any physical contact with people? imagine not being able to get a hug when you need it the most, or a simple touch. sigh, it was so sad. rogue has so much more potential and i hope the future xmen movies show more of her character. and i feel that she did not lose her powers completely. hmmm... we shall see! haha~

other than that, xmen was nice. i dont get why people keep telling me it sucks. it wasnt so bad! better than da vinci code. it really draws people into the characters, especially logan (wolverine), scott (cyclops) and rogue. and the plot wasn't touch-and-go. and the action was superb! and well, yes, scott died a little too easily but then again, hey, he is a man who is grieving at the knowledge that his beloved wife (i think) is dead, only to find out she is still alive and so he happily embraces her, not knowing that she has changed drastically and so ends up being killed by the woman he loves. not forgetting that jean gray is a class 5 mutant, meaning she is damn powerful. so of course scott dies easily. and i never really did like scott much anyway. heh~ too wishy-washy for my liking. on the other hand, i felt that professor xavier died a little too quickly. i was hoping to see more of his powers, but alas, it couldnt compare to jean's. sigh. but then again, anyone who stayed behind after the credits know that he isn't dead. haha~ smart man, that professor xavier. and magneto. still have his powers? ooooohhh. haha~ i want xmen 4! and i want more rogue! haha~ and i love storm's hairdo. and omg i love hank (beast). heh~ kitty was alright, ice-man could be better, erm fireboy (cant remember the actual name) was cool! haha~ and i think ramos from take the lead acted in xmen too! the porcupine-like mutant if im not wrong. heh~ cools!

dinner was at the ex-genghis kahn (i forgotten how to spell his name, see, im getting old!) restaurant. met my family there after the movie. ah, im so full!!! it was so yummy!!! i love the fondue, and im going to grow so fat. haha~ it was a lovely dinner :)

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arts pre-camp was from monday to tuesday. it was fun fun fun!!! hehe~ and tiring. none of my og peeps were there, save for christopher but he went over to another house, that traitor. HAHA~ and so i made new friends!!! although it was kinda wierd cos most of them were from other houses or something and they knew each other beforehand, while i dont really know anyone. yah. so i felt kinda left out sometimes, but its alright! there's always the new freshies at arts camp!!! hehe~ i hope that there's cute guys in my og!!! although more likely the cute guys will erm run away at the sight of me. HAH!

monday night was night venture, which i was involved in as jennifer's assistant. it was fun! as in, listening to people freak out. heh~ laughed my head off when it was erm a house i/c's turn to go in, she was screaming so much someone who was sitting outside with her friend commented to us that we have a screamy girl in there(the station). haha~ ok i am mean. anyway, i helped to dress up the "ghosts"! hehe~ ym's sudden moment of creativity. -_-"

and then, joined my kendo peeps for supper. was going cos we were celebrating wai leng's and siew's bd, but turned out my bd celebration also included. hmmm... who is the naughty one who spread my bd date around ah??? heh~ anyway, thanks people!!! the first group of people to celebrate my birthday this year. oh wows, this marks the erm 4th or 5th year i've actually celebrated my birthday!!! heh~ it all started at jc1 in council... ahhh

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and so, i have also been officially single for 2 years now! woot! hehe~ let's see how long i'll remain single for!!! scarely it's forever, haha! my mum will kill me. hehe~

okies, im off! ciao!




first off, here's a shoutout to all my birthday gals DENIECE, WAI LENG and YICK SIEW!!!! happy birthday!!!!! hehe~ deniece's bd was on friday, wai leng's on sunday and siew's on monday! hehe~

more details on siew's bd bbq tmr! after i get some sleep haha~

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here's what i have to do for kendo grading (copied from shermaine's email):

2.0 Bogu Without Kyu Grades
2.1 Kirikaeshi 1 set each.
2.2 Kihon MEN 4x 1 set each.
2.3 Kihon Kote 4x 1 set each.
2.4 Kihon Do 4x 1 set each.

kihon do?! *faints*

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arts pre-camp on monday to tuesday. busy month, june. what with birthdays, arts pre-camp, arts camp and not to mention, all those rag activities! june is the month of rag 3d2n camps, every week also have one. pls take note ppl! 8th to 10th june; 13th to 15th june and 20th to 22nd june. 26th to 30th june is arts camp! 23rd to 26th june i'll be in malaysia. 17th is rag karang guni collection; 18th is kendo grading! and then there's my tuitions on tuesday night, friday 5pm and 7pm, sat 2.30pm and 5pm.

i sincerely hope for good health this june.

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and i am suffering from brain dead-ness so i shall stop here for now. bye!




a bleach quiz...

You scored as Komamura Sajin. You're Komamura Sajin, Captain of the Seventh Division! Your friends are very important to you. In fact, if one of them becomes distant, you will definitely find out what's wrong and try to fix it. Despite this dedication to your friends, you might hide things from them, and from everyone in general, because you fear that you might be rejected for some aspect of who you really are. Hitsugaya Toushirou 83% Komamura Sajin 83% Tousen Kaname 67% Ichimaru Gin 58% Ukitake Jyuushiro 58% Unohana Retsu 58% Aizen Sousuke 58% Yamamoto Genryuusai 58% Soi Fong 50% Kuchiki Byakuya 42% Kyouraku Shunsui 33% Kurotsuchi Mayuri 17% Zaraki Kenpachi 17% Which of the Thirteen Division Captains (from Bleach) are you? created with QuizFarm.com