had kendo grading todays. we all passed, but im 8th kyu. most of the others from my batch are 7th kyu except nicholas, who is the only one with 6th kyu. goodies for nic! we keep saying he'll be the next captain from our batch haha~

hmmms, someone asked why is it i couldn't be happy with my 8th kyu. at least it was a jump from no kyu to 8th kyu, and not remaining as no grade or simply getting 9th kyu. the thing is, despite my seemingly always cheerful personality, i am never quite happy with things relating to myself - including results. and things i work for, i tend to be harsher on myself. even if i were to get 7th kyu along with the majority, i wont be happy. i never will be. if people knew my past, they would know why. it's this refusal to settle for what im given that drives me, that enables me to be where i am today. i always feel like i have to prove myself, to people, to myself, to the world. and i have to justify that i am worthy of achieving something. so, i am not happy with 8th kyu although i am glad that i can now write a grade on a kendo form rather than a dash. heh~ so pardon me, but i highly doubt i would bother to work harder if im happy with where i am now. if i have ever been happy with where i am, i wouldnt even be in nus right now, would probably be out there somewhere working, maybe in mac still or something. and i am not happy with just being in nus either. i need my goals, and my goal for kendo is 3rd kyu. whether or not i want to continue after graduation, at least getting a 3rd kyu would allow me to continue after graduating from nus, should i decide to. so yah, i am not happy about 8th kyu and i've thought about it and this is prolly the best reason i can give to answer your question.

anyways, thanks to michelle and her family for allowing me to stayover at her place before the grading!!! thanks!!!! and omg mich's house is sooooooo big!!!! personally, i wouldnt want such a big house. the stairs are enough to kill, muahaha~ but i want a house by/overlooking the sea!! hee~ *ahem ahem*

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happy father's day to all fathers out there!!!!

bro's bd tmr, gonna go shopping with him and a few of his friends. -_-" what to do, i promised to go shopping with him on mon and get his pressie. sighz..... he has to bring his friends along though. heh~ oh wells, on the bright side, it means i can go roam around alone after im done with his pressie shopping. muahaha~

jamie gave me centrepoint vouchers for my bd!!!!! with luck, i'll have enough time to go shopping there after dealing with my bro!!! hehe~ with vouchers!!! haha~ thanks jamie!!!

and i have my bd treat from zhiyu le! tcc at holland v wasn't open yet (they open only at 2.30pm :(; tr!!! i want to go there for the coffee muahaha~) so we went over to nydc for lunch instead. and i havent been there in so many years!!! haha~ so i was like exclaiming (like a bimbo or alien i guess)," they've downsized the sandwiches!!! it used to be bigger!!!!!" or "they've downsized the coffee!!! *pout*" haha~ but anw, thanks zy!!!!

and i think that's all. for now. hahas~ sowie, cant really think right now. soooo tired. and glad that grading's over!!! hoot!!! time to prepare for arts camp and arts rag and east-west tourney and matric fair and cmad!!!! eeps~

i swear i will grow more white hairs after this hols. heh~