juz came back frm council gathering. managed to persuade my parents to let me go. went to jess house for it, over at hillview, which is really near to my place. quite a number came this time. me, feli, jess, hannah, karen, hidayah, millah, nisa, faharna, izean, bao yue, edmund, hafiz, wei chang, chee chang, silvest, rosz, jason, william. some couldnt come cos of work, others cos they were sick. would like to see e whole 23rd sc again one day.

we had kfc n california pizza for dinner. hannah also brought this big box of frozen pizzas, a plastic bag full of cakes n all, then her maid did a huge tray of fruit salad(yummy!), n we had of course chips n crackers n drinks. yummies. such a nice n different gathering frm e usual bbq n all. was able to sit n chit chat n basically catch up w one another while listening to the radio. haha~ beside us was this grp of ang mohs having bbq, but think we rowdier than them haha~ n silvest n jason got tipsy... well high. haha~ too much vodka for them. so funny e two of them, basically crapping a lot n making fools of themselves. then we purposely bully silvest, he ask us how to go up(to jess house), we tell him to fly up, or say up up n away then he'll go up. he blur, took him a long time to figure out what we were saying. then we tell him to go n find e lift, then he still blur blur stand there, so we were describing how a lift looks like to him, say there will be a word 'lift' there, then have sound one.... hahaha~ later when we looking at movie listings, he take such a long time to look at e movies n timings, cos his vision blur mah. then we were like, silvest, must focus first hor... then he say jurong pt all the movies, then we already say watch "white noise", then he still looking at e paper, then we talk for a long long time already then he suddenly say, "ok, we watch 12.45 white noise ah"... -_-".... stun. thought we all decide for long long time liaoz... hahha~ then after tt karen say look at other places see tt movie have what other timings, then tt blur boy go n look all e way to marina, yangtze n all.... tampines also have, so we joke joke say go tampines one then can send e guys back to ns as well.... haha~ haiz... he so drunk until like tt.... he also dun dare go too near the swimming pool in case he fall in. hahaha~

anw, i cant go out watch midnight movie, n anw i dun watch horror movies, so after taking some photos, i left w most of the girls (who also have to go off). then i took 173 back, sianz. the bus stop there only have me n this other couple, then tt couple hanky-panky n all, i purposely turn e other side n diao them. haha~ now im home n mum's gonna start yelling again. chaoz!




went out for steamboat dinner after work ytd with sharon n yuanjie. went to bugis one, e tian tian huo guo, but it was fully booked after 7, so couldnt go in. then we went to suntec, n we were the first customers there. by the time we left, the restaurant was like full-house. haha~ lucky we go early.

so it was my first time having mala huo guo(how to spell...) not bad... rather spicy.. haha~ ordered alot of stuff, sharon ate e most lor. i ate e least lor. but not fair, she eat so much still so skinny, i eat so little still so fat... :( n then e dessert tt time leh, my waterchestnut jelly fell to e floor.... :( my fav dessert fell to e floor... it dun like me.... see me already commit suicide... then sharon n yuanjie keep saying things make me even guilty/ not happy tt i didnt get to eat my jelly.... then e ice-cream ok lah haha~ total bill: abt 36 bucks...omg so much!!!

n then went to walk walk, me n sharon go see see clothes, throw yuanjie somewhere else haha~ end up he go to e sports shops.... haha~ then sharon bought a skirt, she keep trying to psycho me into buying sth too but i cannot, my mum will surely kill me. haiz.

then we were looking at some bridal pics juz for fun n the lady who was manning the stall came n talk to us. n she thought i was e one getting married. -_-" do i look tt old?! n i dun even have a bf... :( haha~ n then she thought we were sisters n she thought sharon was e younger sister! -_-""""""" *cries* i muz really look old le since a 22 yr old can become my younger sis.... then to comfort me sharon keep saying is i look more matured.... hahaha~ then she say e lady prolly said tt cos she was wearing make-up n i wasnt, n the younger ones r usually more vain than e older ones. hmm... so i better go n learn how to put on make-up liaoz... haha~ then i'll look younger :)

then nth to do, so they took up my idea n we walked to esplanade. took some pics there. i had a barcadi breezer (peach), hehe~ n too bad, i din get drunk haha~ then we juz sit there n chit chat n enjoy the breeze n music... haha~ so many ppl... hmm... there was a function there but dunno is for wad....

after tt, late le, so we took e train back. n my dad picked me up frm bb interchange (he scared got no more bus). then while waiting for him i had mr macdonald n a cockroach accompanying me. haha~

today nth much. did some work yupz.... i hope hope hope tt my parents will allow me to go for my council get-tog.... miss them. some more all e ns guys tt can come out gg..... i wan to go!!!!!!!!!!!!! *prays* u muz pray for me too kies? haha~

tt's all fer now, bye~




in aes staff room, we have a very warm culture. my colleagus are generally very warm n friendly ppl, willing to set aside time just to help u get orientated with your surroundings, giving useful tips n advice, listening in to ur complaints n joking all day long...

i guess the time tt really bonds us together is lunch time, or anytime we go down to the canteen to eat. it may start off with just two of us, and then soon more people will join our table. soon, we'll be sharing stories n experiences, just like old friends. it's a wonderful break from having to deal with students the whole day, n the easiest way to get to know your colleagues. in aes staff rm, everyone knows everyone else.

n everytime after sch, at the end of lessons, when the staff room is bustling with teachers coming in after a long day of work, u can hear some of the funniest things ard. it's e time when teachers kick off their shoes n sit back n relax. its a time when we act like kids, act cute or gossip. its a time to share how ur day has been, its a time to make after work plans with fellow colleagues, its a time e students rarely get to see. teachers calling each other names, teasing one another, being cute, saying the lamest things, climbing on tables(to get or fix sth), talking n joking loudly, singing songs(even lame ones); the students will get a shock if they saw us... hahaha~ like there was one time, mr lee wei meng n mr micheal kept singing this song abt sth they dont have.... yah well mr lee started it but it caught on. n today, le ming was acting cute, saying she's e prettiest woman ard, n then getting suan by ee-lyn n regina. n mr fun's non-stop flirting... haha~

e staff room.... i guess it'll be sth i'll miss when i leave. frm a student to a teacher (although relief), it was pretty much an experience working with teachers, MY teachers in fact. its a place which makes all the crap you've had that day all the more bearable. im glad i had this chance to see n be a part of this warm aes staff culture.

this friday, having steamboat dinner with my colleagues. it was sharon's idea. she wanted to have one b4 i leave... so nice of her.... so yup. hehe~ the first n last dinner i'll have w them! hahaha~ promoted liaoz... keke~ ritez, tt all fer now, chaoz!




a level results coming out soon.... kinda nervous. have been avoiding the thought of it for a long time now, but now tt it is drawing near many ppl have been asking me abt it n wad i intend to do after. well, cant say im not nervous, but i know tt wad is done is done, it cant be undone. can i wish i had work harder, put in more effort, not allow myself to get distracted? it wont change wad my result will be. if i have to retain (touchwood!), i can only promise myself tt i wont make e same mistakes again. of course, i dont want to retain, i want to get gd grades n get to a uni.... if i get e grades, i know my efforts have not gone to waste. those years spent toiling n pushing myself, out to prove to my detractors im capable of things, tt im not stupid. if i get to uni, n get a degree n hopefully a masters, tt's e last lap. they will keep quiet forever, n i know i have achieved. i know i will then have sth to be proud of. i cant not get e grades.... there's no other way for me. if i cant make it, im doomed forever. they will nvr spare me. i try to comfort myself these days by telling myself i have put in my best, e best i could do. i have, frm em2 in nanyang, gone to aes. it was my wake-up call. i worked my butt off in there, to get frm 1/3 to 2/3 n then promoted to 3/1. e proudest moment i had was back there, topping e level for e first time in english n getting e grades to enter a jc. now tt i have succesfully finished jc, i hope to successfully get into a uni course. nth short of tt.

tingren wants to take e same course as me. i want to take english at ntu. yes, i know the course is new, but e course offered at ntu is more interesting. english at ntu comprimises of not just the study of english language, but literature n media as well. english at nus is just english language itself; to take lit, we have to do e eng lit course. besides, i can do minors in ntu, cross fac or same fac. im considering, shd i take psychology, political science or business as minor? hmm.... sth to consider... haha~ i wonder, if tingren will end up at e same uni, taking e same course in e same class n staying in e same hostel room? kinda freaky come to think of it... tingren for another 3-4 yrs of my life!!! haha~ juz kidding.... :P e gd thing would be at least there'll be someone i know... :)

okies, i know im thinking too much, think until quite far away... haha~ but not really tt far... hehe~ i hope to get into uni, im looking forward to finally being able to do e course i've always wanted to do n meeting new ppl.... haha~ n staying in a hostel away frm parents' eyes.... haha~ n hopefully meeting mr right? hahaha~ kies tt is far away.....haha~ well, e reality is a levels result is coming out soon, cant escape frm it, can only accept it. just hoping tt i did well....

tt's all fer now, chaoz!!

missing - evanescence

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

(Can you stop the fire, you can't stop the fire)
(Can you stand to fight her, if you won't say the words?)
(Please, please)




went out for dim sum w my family n uncle todae... he booked a table at orchard place, but brought us to orchard shopping centre instead. only found out of our mistake at e counter, but luckily they let us in real quick, though we had to sit out in e balcony. unfortunately, lotsa dim sum was not available anymore, mostly sold out or they dont do for cny, so we juz ordered some.... then e chinese tea also not tt nice...

after tt, dad dropped me off at chinatown n i went to meet lay ping... she suddenly want to go chinatown todae to walk walk... went to og first, walked round n round, i bought two skirts hehe... real cheap... yippee!!! gd thing abt having ur own money haha~ then we went to e flea market across e road, walked walked n looked looked... bought some drinks, i had e honey lemon aloe vera one n lay ping's is some herbs one.... haha~ nice n refreshing! heeh~ walked some more, finish le walked to erm e mkt there... looked at e clothes, ok lah, oni cannot try.... sob sob.... so left... then walked e other way down to chinatown point, then walked across to people's park centre.... then sian le, by tt time also 6 le, walked back to station n took train down to westmall. went for dinner, then lay ping really cannot take it le, e poor girl fell sick, so she went home n i went home... haha~

now feet hurts, so long nvr walk like tt le haah~ okies, tt all fer now, back to work tmr!!! 1 more week n 2 days to go!!!




ytd, went to westmall to meet feli first b4 taking bus to jj. at 11 plus, it was already bustling w life, w ppl gg in n out of e sch. so long havent gone back le, feel excited... haha~ i miss sch.... those carefree days w my franz, hanging ard chatting n making fun of ppl n mugging tog.... haha~ pushing each other, cheering each other on, helping one another... those were e days. so when i saw all my franz, those frm my batch, my seniors n my juniors, we hugged each other for we havent seen each other for a long long time.....

e moment we stepped in, it was e dunking machine.... haha~ lotsa ppl getting dunked... hehe~ walked ard, saw yuhua, haha~ she selling muffins, ask mi to buy but i not hungry yet... so didnt.... then saw wende, gabriel n cheng siew, all busy at their stalls. walked some more, in e canteen, it was e food stalls. first stall we saw was e council stall, stopped to say hi to all my juniors n we met our seniors jie chao n yihua. haha~ i keep playing w yihua's hair, say finally he got hair liaoz... haha~ so promised e councillors i'll patronise their stall as soon as my tummy starts grumbling. ask them to save food for mi lor... haha~ then walked ard some more, went to yvonne's stall, got my tix frm her, they all selling candy floss n popcorn, jinyi was there also, all bugging mi to buy... haha~ but i havent had breakfast or lunch wan me to eat candy floss abit funny hor.... so told them later again. walked ard some more, noticed tt this yr they have e haunted house thing again...haha~ so many ppl were queuing up.... found shiyan, then feli saw her alex.... haiz... tt girl another paedophile... haha~ and then someone tapped my shoulder, when i turned, it was shenlyn n ellen! haha~ then tt shenlyn pretend to be very dao to me, so i say "dont care u, i talk to ellen", then talk to ellen lor, then shenlyn argue w me when i play w her "bee" deco, then she argue until end up hug me haha~ we must look kinda funny.... haha~ so nice to see her again.... remb last time hist lec n chinese class always sit tog one.... told each other our probs too.... she was one of e first who was there for me during e hard times i went through... still remb she n tingren dragged me to jp to go shopping e day tt happened, n kept staring daggers at him... haha~ but shenlyn at tt time leaving le, cos she's been there since 9 plus....

walked some more, saw lotsa ppl.... then went up to cafe to buy stuff, saw samson n louis at counter there, turns out they're working there, 5 bucks an hr for 8 hrs... haha~ anlin also working there.... then shiyan bought soup, n i saw mary n jessica!!! hehe~ chatted w them for some time then they left n we found a table. while shiyan drank her soup, we saw hafiz n edmund leaving e cafe, opened e window n shouted down to them... haha~ we were chatting like this.... n then saw silvest, jason n millah, opened e window n shouted to them again..... haha~ e whole time we were at e cafe, busy opening e window n shouting down to our franz.... haha~ after shiyan finished her soup, went back down to walk, went to stage there, it was eileen n ying peng doing a duet!!!! e alicia keys song, if i aint got u! they're real gd, shd take part in sg idol. then ying peng sang a capella, so nice!!! my idol... haha~ n eileen performed solo as well.... hehe~ after tt, more song dedications, then my council juniors performed!!! real nice.... they did two dances, ask mi n feli to join in one, but too bad we din know e dance steps.... they performed beyonce's "crazy in love" n "five colours in my hair"(forgot who's e singer).... then have band performances, not bad...... then i went up to cafe to say hi to lay ping... chatted w her for some time, then sharon called n i went down to meet her.... she came w her bf n tuition kid.... then chatted w swee ling also, my baby panda!!! haah~ more hugs... hehe~

so after e band performances, as promised, went to e council stall, bought their crepe surprise upon their recommendation, n at e same time joined them in bullying e 21st council pres eugene... haha~ made him eat some wierd food made by mei xin(current council pres)...hehe~ after tt, went to do tattoo n saw ms mandy getting dunked... haha~ my tattoo i did on e ankle, design simple n nice, did it in black n hot pink!!! really nice.... n feli liked e colours so much she did hers using e same colours as well.... helped shiyan w her colours, cos hers is bigger so can use 3 cols, she did hers in purple, pink n blue, but come out can only see purple n pink....turns out e tattoo stall was by lee ann's class! saw lee ann, she doing henna... haha~ then we went to jinyi's stall n bought candy floss, yvonne help me do one haha~ she pro lor.... haha~ then chatted w them n hwee bee came! she so happy to see me haha~ n saw xuan feng, rebecca, andy n erm oops... i forgot his name... :P all aes de, last time i looked after their class when i was a prefect, then their class kept calling me ms lee.... -_-" haha~ now all in j1 or poly le.... haha~ feels so old...

then it was 5 le, shiyan had to go, so we quickly took photos of our tattoos(while it looks gd haha)... then went to jp w miq as well, had dinner(oven-baked rice! yummies) n then went to watch movie. watched million dollar baby, abt a female wannabe boxer, its a real good movie, really interesting. go watch. even miq wants to watch it again... haha~ surprise surprise... after tt went home, reached home 10 pm le, showered n went to bed....

tt all.... gg out now... chaoz~




sean, my student frm 3/6, gave me a farewell gift todae.... he surprised me by interrupting mi in e middle of my lesson to present me a cute lil rabbit keychain, saying its for me. i thought he was kidding at first, but he insisted its for me. then i looked at it, and well e rabbit looked a lil..... dead.... its e eyes.... n sean guessed wad i was thinking, he was like," i know e rabbit looks kinda dead", then i said,"wah! u all curse me ah, give me dead rabbit..." then sean became so nervous, he kept saying,"no no no, its not dead its not dead, see, its sleeping! its a sleeping rabbit!" haha~ so cute.... then he said,"so whenever u look at e rabbit, u will think of 3/6!" -_-" hahaha~ ok, quite cute... hee~ see, 3/6 is my nicest class so far :) i always look forward to gg to 3/6, esp when im in a bad mood, cos they're all so cute they nvr fail to make me smile... :) haha~

shima called mi todae.... she was looking for ppl to do camps for next week... but i cannot... next week is my last week of work le, so i told her tt i can do camps after 1st march.... then she say ok then hang up.... so wasted.... heart pain... wad if e company nvr call me up again? wad if they have given up on me, juz like they did to cody? i dun wan!!!! i've been looking forward to becoming a camp instructor after working as relief, now tt its so near i dun wan it to go away..... sigh....

jj's love fiesta tmr, hope to see many ppl i know there!
*thank god it's friday!*




i walked out of 3/7 today. got so pissed at them. kept playing soccer in my class, after 3 warnings, they were still playing. n lester n gang kept talking loudly, i dont understand y is it tt they must talk at e top of their lungs n disturb everyone! even irwan n roy couldnt stand them, they were yelling at them to keep quiet n stop playing. min yew was so amazed cos i was still teaching despite e din, he kept asking me how i could stand it. but then i got so tired of shouting just to teach, so i kept quiet n stared at them. yet they continued playing. i got so fed-up, i juz took my stuff n walked out. i cant be bothered to scream at them anymore. if they dont want to learn, so be it. i'll juz walk out. i dont care if they feel happy abt it or wadeva, im tired of straining my voice. anw, its just one more week to go. i dont intend to spend the next few days nursing a bad throat n high fever again.

a surprise: irwan n roy actually booked me almost every day of next week for consultations after sch. apparently, they cant stand the noise frm their own class too, n want to study. so looks like i'll spend my last week camping in sch. had consultation w roy today after sch. saw him frm 2.30 all e way to 4.15.... din have lunch cos of tt..... his prob is tt he gets distracted too easily. e others play, he has to join them, he cant like ignore them or anything. even if he changes to a better class, i doubt his behaviour will change. the only saving grace is tt at least his interested in learning, unlike e others.

1 week, 2 days to go. somehow, i find myself eager to leave. i dread having to see 3/8 again.

unwritten - natasha bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, oh, oh

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inner visions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten

Oh, yeah, yeah




i was so pissed today. first, relief in 2/4, they refused to stand up n greet me, esp this 2 guys, juz being plain defiant. so i made them stand, n waited for them to be ready. n they started complaining, talking back, hurling insults n wadeva, so i talked back to them, using the same tone. end up making them stand for 45 mins, after which they were pretty quiet for the last 15 mins. apparently, tt was one of e rare occassions tt tt class was quiet.

n then, those idiotic students of 3/8 got themselves "suspended" again. so less than half e class was in class, which was fine w me. n then during e last 10 mins, those "suspended" came in n put down their bags, n while some of them stayed in class, e rest went out, saying they have to "continue their suspension". n those idiots lied to me. to think tt i believed them! they actually went for early recess, n went caught by a teacher, they told her tt i released them early for recess!!! so when i went down to e staff rm later, tt teacher was so mad at me, i was in trouble. when i found out what they had done, i juz felt so mad n betrayed, i felt like screaming at them n crying. to think tt i trusted them. to think tt i believed in them, n nvr gave up on them. to think tt juz ytd, when they complained of gastric cos they couldnt eat while being suspended, i actually gave them food to eat n water to drink! n yet they did this to me. n tt shao wei still have e nerve to lie to me in my face when i questioned him! n e chinese girls could still happily greet me as though nth had happened! i am so pissed at them! i cannot believe they could do this, but they did. i dont think i will ever ever trust them again. i'll be a fool if i did! i juz felt like quitting rite then n there, juz so i wouldnt have to see their faces. thank goodness tmr they'll all be missing sch cos they'll be out visiting an ite. tt bunch of idiots r going to get it frm the dicipline master tmr. n they will get it frm me shd they happen to unfortunately cross my path. n these students actually lied to e principal n said they were suspended by mr lam, but when he checked mr lam didnt even know abt it all! e same bunch lied to me n i am most definately not gg to let those imbeciles off.

1wk n 5 days left. let's hope i can survive those few days w/o vomiting blood n gg mad shall we?




well, im back in sg liaoz....came back last nite, went back to work todae..... HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY everyone!!! anw, to recap, nth much happened over e past few days.... juz swimming at e hotel, dinner n night activity..... on fridae, went swimming, den showered n prepared for dinner @ northam hotel. think e female senior waitress have pms or sth, keep shooting daggers at us, take bowls also muz bang them on e table. dinner was alright, again din eat much.... cos of e late lunch. oh yah, forgot to mention, after swimming we went for late lunch at padang there..... yummies.... think e lunch was nicer than dinner... ha~ in penang, e hawker food is always nicer than restaurant food..... make tt in e whole of m'sia..... yepz. then after dinner, rested a while b4 gg off for midnight movie w most of my cuzz.... watched constantine, it was good, keeps u on e edge of ur seat most of e time. yepz.... go watch, really exciting..... mi bro jumped so many times machiam like gg to get heart attack like tt... haha~ after tt, went back to gong gong's house to slp.

sat, went back to e hotel, but cher see having high fever, so din swim or anything, ended up thinking of ways to entertain her. poor girl, high fever cos of ytd's swimming session... wonder how is she now.... anw, yah so play play,then went back to gong gong's house fer dinner, then chatted n made fun of pei pei's e-fran online... haha~ get my aunt to pose as an eligible woman, then she made it very aggressive... haha~ scared e guy haha~ n my uncle also joined in, so e name she gave, aida, is actually made up of my aunty connie n uncle yong-q. haha~ then later at night, went to pub w pei,aunty connie, lee lian n lee ann.... went to soho, too noisy, din like e techno music, n outside was filled w prostitutes, wad more inside. wad shocked us was tt as we were abt to leave e place, this grp of really small kids suddenly came out of e pub! sth like 2-6 yr olds.... imagine, at 12plus in e morning, at a pub blaring loud techno music, pros outside n ppl smoking, kids walk out of e pub like nobody's business..... omg.... wonder if their parents have gone crazy or sth. too young to be in a pub!!! at tt hr, they shd be at home sleeping! omg.... anw, walked ard, ended up at this chinese pub, sat outside, tt pub ah, got this live band where e male back-up singer is this try-hard to b a girl.... goodness me..... not even gd looking or anything.... then we all had mocktails except aunty connie, basically e alcohol served there either not so nice or percentage too high.... then while chatting, suddenly this old uncle w balding head came out of e pub, took out a handkerchief n started wiping his head.... we were like, wth? wad's he doing at such a place? prolly e oldest man we ever see in a pub.... n e pub was by then blaring techno music as well.... after drinking, left e place juz as tt back-up singer came up drunk or sth, they had to support him to a sofa, he was on e verge of fainting or sth.... thank goodness we left b4 he started puking all over e place.... went back home, good night(or morning).

sunday, lunch at lorong selemat, finally, my penang laksa!!!! yummies!!! mi fav.... hehehe~ then went to see uncle's new house, then went home, packed n got ready to go to airport. reached home, prepared fer todae, slp.

todae, go to sch, students started wishing me happy valentine's day n as expected, asking mi fer presents n all.... haha~ well, officially, i have 2 more weeks left. 2 weeks n no more! working till 2nd march, then no more, unless sth happens to mrs ooi again lah (touch-wood)... well.... time left is short, will have to make e most of it. alright, better get back to work, chaoz!




ah....came back frm ipoh liaoz.... long time nvr see charmaine n all liaoz.... hehe~ well, when we reach there, it was 3plus, had vegetarian lunch, my aunt cook one.... it's e highlight, one of my fav dishes!!! hehehe~ so i ate lotsa veges hehehe~ then we entertained some guests tt came to visit... all my mum's cousins.... n oni one grp have a cute son hahaha~ too bad he one yr younger than me...heh~ keep staring at me some more...haha~ :P then it was shower, then we gambled a while.... heh~ i got disciple leh... teach him how to play, then my uncle bully me say teacher teach bad thing... hahaha~ but i din tell my students cannot gamble lor... i oso din say can... haha~ :P then ok lor, won some cash haha~ my uncle scared of me also, cos he banker..... then have to pay me double or thriple a no. of times cos i keep getting blackjack or 5 cards... haha~ then had dinner, tt restaurant seriously no frills one.... no service, but e food ok lah.... quite a lot of ppl, until i feel eat until very hurried, cos they change e dish very fast, n all of us like juz keep eating, no rest like tt.... ha~ i realise i've been eating very little... hmm......

then come home, more black jack..... haha~ then when charmaine they all left to go to their hotel, we played some fireworks.... then i had to wait for my granma to shower finish so i can take out contacts, so sat at e table there n chat w alvin.... still remb last time we always go swimming tog one... haha~ now he finish uni liaoz, while i waiting for results to go in... haha~ so fast.... then manage to get him to promise to come down to sg.... yippee!!!!!!!!

then next day, cos my uncle won lots frm e gambling session (keep thanking me, cos he sit quite near, then if i lucky he also lucky), he treated us to ice cream!!! hehe~ went to jusco fer baskin robins... yummies!!! in m'sia, e most popular n quite expensive ice cream outlets is baskin robins.... so my uncle treat all of us to tt... mi n alvin shared a banana split, then e three flavors were mint chocolate (for me!), world of chocolate(for him!) n butter peacan... hehe~ yepz.... then charmaine they all joined us later, n they had ice cream too... kekeke~ after tt, we went bacl to penang...

last nite, photo-taking cos everyone in penang le, then came to my granpa house... so i had to change to a nice nice outfit to take family pic, wore my prom dress... my cousins liked it, esp e top! hehe~ i like my top also... haha~ so cheap some more *grinz* then it was dinner, we had to setup tables n chairs outside, then major gathering there... haha~ reallie nice, this is like e first time we had tt... n it was like pot luck style... hehe~ so nice to see everyone again, first full family gathering in 10 yrs! yep yep~ then i have more hongbaos also cos more ppl married mah... hahaha~ but then have one family cannot give cos their gm juz passed away, so they gave us presents instead. i got this real nice purple necklace, hehe~ all e gals had jewellery.... real nice... yep yep~ then it was fireworks time, e men really splurged on it this time, all so nice n big!!! reallie cool, think this one was quite gd!! can compete w e neighbours hahaha~ then for e finale, we set off e most expensive one, costs ard 200rm, so ex!!! 50 shots, it was reallie nice..... cool! ppl like me, one yr can put fireworks once oni all get to light them up... hehe~ so fun! i love cny for this fireworks n of course hong bao n new clothes lah... hahaha~ :P

then gamble again... this time mi luck not tt gd, but at e end had another ice cream treat... oni this time e place they went was some new shop frm taiwan, called ice ice baby... so stupid. then e desserts there super ex, n was not nice... some more we had to cancel 4 orders cos they took such a long time to come! n some more there was like no more of tt dish n they din tell us, make us sit there n wait until lee lian fell aslp! haha~ then we waited for an hr juz for a glass of water... left feeling quite pissed cos of e lousy service.... n cheated.... haiz

todae... gg swimming later, i wonder how since i dun have a costume... sigh.... then dinner at nite, n after tt, e youngsters gg for midnight movie!!! hehe~ watching constantine.... then tmr maybe go clubbing, i dunno... haha~ kies, tt all! cher see wants me to play w her liaoz... feeling like a babysitter hahaha~ kies, chaoz!!!




reached penang at 9 todae..... so tired..... woke up at 5 plus.... sianz.... haha~ first time taking cab to my relative's house, cos my uncle had to work.... heh~ so yah.... then only have my two young cousins there, been entertaining them e whole day! brought e girl go shopping, hee~ she so cute! bought her a wallet n a spaghetti shirt... haha~ then she show mi all her new clothes some more... n she so naughty, keep taking all e nice, expensive n sexy clothes for me, ask me to buy.... some cost like 400++!!!!!!! *faints* then back at home, we watched kung fu hustle... ha~ e show have absolutely no storyline lor.... n it makes no sense one.... only very funny. n it was in canto, so my cuzz dun understand, then they keep asking for translation... heh~ n i juz realised my guy cuzz was wearing my shorts!!!! turns out i left it here by accident, n he's been wearing it! haha~ then on him so funny, looks so big... haha~ n i left my shirt here too.... ha~ no wonder cannot find.... we all like tt one, everyone leaves sth here... always.... haha~

tonight, having steamboat fer dinner!!! yay!!! then gonna play fireworks until 12 plus to welcome e new yr!!! then tmr gg to drive down to ipoh, hope to see charmaine they all there.... long time nvr see them liaoz.... then can bully kaivan also~ tt stupid guy come down sg nvr come n say hi.... he reach liaoz go setosa club... dots...

happy cny to all of ya! hope u like this card!
http://www.123greetings.com/view/AU40208024514251







todae, recieved news i'll be working fer another 2 more weeks, till end feb.... okies, at least i shd be able to finish chap 4 by then.... hehe~ yepz~ then todae, recieved a pleasant surprise. 3/7, one of my students gave me mandarin orange todae... n he is a malay student, then one of e more mischievous one.... haha~ i was so shocked, suddenly give me orange.... n last thurs he gave me sweets some more.... hehe~

felt like santa claus todae.... or chai sheng ye(how to spell???) giving out chocolates to my students... all 3 classes also have... heh~ see im so nice.... hahaha~ then my 3/6 was so happi they thanked me,then wish me happi chinese new yr.... heh~ so cute..... some more is like todae i saw tt class thrice lah! one fer chem, twice relief... then i last period go in tt time dunno wad to do w them le, then they all ask me to tell story... then suddenly i was surrounded by e class guys, all seating ard me, felt so wierd.... one some more tell me it is a rapist n murderer association..... -_-""""""..... i want out!!!! hhaha~ end up tell story to them n some of e gals.... talk abt aes ghost story n all..... yep yep.... hehe~ then my colleague got a shock when he came in.... mi seating on e table surrounded by students, e class so nice n quiet.... haha~ machiam like campfire like tt.... hehe~

tmr gg to m'sia le.... sharon gave me hong bao todae, but inside is chocolates.... haha~ so cute.... then do sean n bryan's last dae is this fri, feel so sad, cos i wont be ard to say bye to them.... so bid them bye bye todae.... sigh.... w/o them, my place there veri quiet liaoz.... no one to crap w le... :(

tmr all e married colleagues gonna give hong bao... i also wan!!!! haha~ hope they all will give me on mon... hehe~ :P alritez, g2g pack pack, chaoz~

wish all of u a happy chinese new yr, xing nian kuai le!!!! happy yr of rooster, wish u all gd health n happiness!!!! dun miss me k??/ hehe~




bored...nth to do... busy springcleaning n typing chem notes... sigh...

collision course is nice.... enjoy this lyrics taken frm one of e best mash-ups ever!!!!

Numb/Encore - Linkin Park and Jay-Z

Thank you, thank you, thank you, you're far too kind

Now can I get an encore, do you want more
Cookin raw with the Brooklyn boy
So for one last time I need y'all to roar

Now what the hell are you waitin for
After me, there shall be no more
So for one last time, nigga make some noise

Get em Jay

Who you know fresher than Hov'? Riddle me that
The rest of y'all know where I'm lyrically at
Can't none of y'all mirror me back
Yeah hearin me rap is like hearin G. Rap in his prime
I'm, young H.O., rap's Grateful Dead
Back to take over the globe, now break bread
I'm in, Boeing jets, Global Express
Out the country but the blueberry still connect
On the low but the yacht got a triple deck
But when you Young, what the fuck you expect? Yep, yep
Grand openin, grand closin
God your man Hov' cracked the can open again
Who you gon' find doper than him with no pen
just draw off inspiration
Soon you gon' see you can't replace him
with cheap imitations for DESE GENERATIONS

Now can I get an encore, do you want more
Cookin raw with the Brooklyn boy
So for one last time I need y'all to roar

Now what the hell are you waitin for
After me, there shall be no more
So for one last time, nigga make some noise

What the hell are you waiting for

[sighs] Look what you made me do, look what I made for you
Knew if I paid my dues, how will they pay you
When you first come in the game, they try to play you
Then you drop a couple of hits, look how they wave to you
From Marcy to Madison Square
To the only thing that matters in just a matter of years (yea)
As fate would have it, Jay's status appears
to be at an all-time high, perfect time to say goodbye
When I come back like Jordan, wearin the 4-5
It ain't to play games witchu
It's to aim at you, probably maim you
If I owe you I'm blowin you to smithereeens
Cocksucker take one for your team
And I need you to remember one thing (one thing)
I came, I saw, I conquered
From record sales, to sold out concerts
So muh'fucker if you want this encore
I need you to scream, 'til your lungs get sore

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb
Can I get an encore, do you want more (more...)
I've become so numb
So for one last time I need y'all to roar
One last time I need y'all to roar





todae was aes cross-country, sch was at macritchie. reached there at 7,was one of da first few.... so sianz... haha~ then, mi checkpt is checkpt 4, den is the furthest checkpt, so we walked there at 7.55..... yepz.... then my partners all e blood not sweet one, all e mossies come n find me instead.... sigh.... i feeding mossies... haiz....

so im at e boy's route... ok... so i saw lots of boys.... n half-naked boys..... haiz.... all take off shirt n run one.... then got some of them very cute, see us still can greet us good morning.... hahaha~ den cos ours is e halfway pt, so is like they saw us, then we direct them to turn right, then they turn liaoz realize they'll be hitting lornie road, saw all e cars so happy, cos they thought gg to finish liaoz.... hahhaha~ but hor, i find running beside e road one e worst.... so hot plus all e car exhaust.... i love running inside macritchie, so nice n cooling, some more have nice scenery...

one of students fell down, so i was helping him to wash his wounds, den ask him go find first aider... then in e meantime, our place kena infested by ants, so much so tt we spent a long time getting e ants away frm e bench.... then i had to keep e food in my bag to prevent e ants frm getting to it... haiz. wanted to study for driving test, end up getting entertained by ants, mossies n "monkeys"... sianz....

so at 10 plus, it all ended.... followed e rear runners cum my two clowns ivan n nicholas... those two monkeys go run 2nd round, purposely make sure they r e last... diaoz.... like tt also shuang.... haiz... they reallie cmi liaoz... then hooi lin sick, so me n sharon took bus w her, then stop st e wrong bus stop, so have to walk a while... then by e time we reach e carpark, prize presentation start liaoz... no one frm my classes won... as expected... all of them all walk one... haiz....

then it was staff lunch, my 3/8 boys very funny hor... all crowd ard me dun let mi eat in peace... kena entertained by 3 very un-entertaining boys.. more like trying to make me feel so disgusted until i wont eat anymore.... nearly end up throwing my food at wei boon's face.... tt guy ar, he go change to home clothes, then his shirt at first i thought it said starbucks, but actually it was star****s... diaoz... then he go n use his bag n cover... like one pregnant man like tt... haha... then his cap is roxy cap lor... then i keep suaning him, say he girl... hahaha~ :P who ask them always bully me.... then tt shao wei hor... disappear for like 1 week plus liaoz, after e run then turn up in pink some more... liaoz.... spoil only... hahaha~ :P then he tell me he super up-to-fashion one.... yah rite... haha~ then benjamin wear long-sleeved shirt some more, than he keep complaining very hot, like duh... of course lah! then they found out i having driving test later... so this is wad they tell me:
benjamin: later test ar? be careful hor. dun follow my mum, she fail 3 times liaoz, the 3rd time she bang the pole, then e pole fall down n hit another car, then she fail. she was so angry, say e instructor not fair one, purposely fail her.
me:........ like of course fail lah.... hit e pole still can pass meh?
benjamin: so u later must not be like her hor... (erm... im only takinf basic theory today?????????)
me: ?????????????????
ben:cher, u this yr how old ar?
me:u say leh?
ben: 19!! u waiting for results rite?
me: yah.... hope can go uni
ben: go sim lah, dun go uni
me: y?
ben: my sis study there mah, then can take care of u.... or go nus (or is it ntu???), my bro can take care of u....
me: erm.......... but i dun wan take biz... i wan take english....
wei boon: u 19 ar... eh can intro shao wei's bro to u leh
shao wei: huh? wad intro... my bro marry already lor...
ben: oh yah hor... aiyah, we find guy n intro to u lor... muz help u find husband...
me: -_-"........ i still young lor.... have a lot of time to look for husband... dun need u to intro...
ben: no lor cher, marry young good wad... then can "play" more...
me: ................ (contemplates kicking him)
wb: (bag kena ransacked by ben... thank god)
ben: (takes out mask... ??????????)
me: u all bring mask for wad?
ben: gg to scare e ppl at party world [KTV]
me: -_-""""""""""""""

so if u were at woodlands ktv ard lunchtime, gd luck to ya....

after tt, me,sharon,mr koh(i can nvr remb his name... :P) n dora left chatting there... waiting for dora's bf to pick her up, anw e rest of us free, so we accompany her lor... then her bf come, we left... sharon saw e florist shop opposite, so she drag us there to buy flowers, trying to tempt me to buy some more... haha~ she bought pink roses... heh~ e orchids there so nice lor!!! i wan orchids.... hahaha~ then e carnations also quite nice... n lilies!!!! hehehe~ :P die, kena sharon's influence liaoz... haahaha~ after she got her flowers (20 stalks!!! omg),we took 157 to westmall there, then they so nice, accompany me b4 my test, cos they want me to relax, so went coffee bean drink coffee n share cake, ha... end up sharon "treat" me... :P... then after tt, left for gombak, sharon took same bus as me...

e test was alright... e guy beside me was cheating, he kept asking his fran for ans.... liaoz... if he take by himself he sure die liaoz.... cos he alot of qn dunno... haiz. after test, i end up at westmall again, bought some stuff, bought collision course... n chocolates fer my students (they so pampered hor...).. then i leaving tt time, bumped into er.... joyce? i think... ar suddenly brain-dead.... go to uwa de... sm one.... wad's e name again ar??? help!!! anw, we chat until i miss 2 buses... hahaha~ so yah... :P den she tell me tmr steven they all coming out of ns... ah??? okies......

gg m'sia next week!!! i cant wiat!!!! gong xi fa cai to all of ya!!!!






darkness sets in
my head
i roam
the streets
why wont u
leave me alone?
a new day has come
breaking free

i will not fall......

i love this song.... its new by eminem..... really nice n touching.... yep yep...

mockingbird - eminem

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me

Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
Well I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gon' pull together through it, we gon' do it
Laney uncles crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up his daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have gotten so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream

[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broke into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
On the Chalmers in the flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Laney were to young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Laney I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment

[Chorus]

And if you ask me too
Daddy's gonna buy you a mockingbird
I'mma give you the world
I'mma buy a diamond ring for you
I'mma sing for you
I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'mma break that birdies neck
I'd go back to the jewler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat don't fuck with dad (haha)





went out w nadiah ytd after work.... met her at jp, had late lunch at banquet.... she reallie nvr change, 4eva eat until so slow.... hahaha~ walk also so slow..... she walk to giordano take so long my hair turn white liaoz..... hehe~ kidding... so nice to see her again, she see me give me a big hug!!! keke~ then we go makan.... then after tt went to walk walk....

bought cards fer my students, n lotsa stickers :D hehe~ valentine's day comes early for them!!! hahaha~ then we went to value shop, bought lotsa sweets too.... they so lucky hor? got v day prezzies frm me.... i wan v day prezzie too!!!! hehehe~ :P then after tt, my mum kept calling, so i have to go home... :(

toodae.... nth much. mrs sim gave me 3/6's new seating arrangement, then she tell me her students, e gals, r so bitchy.... she say they r a bitchy bunch. then i tell her she hasnt seen 3/8 girls yet.... hiao n bitchy.... haha~ me so bad... :P but reallie lor... cannot stand them...

then teach 3/8, half e class gone. dun care, i juz taught those who were there, then one of my students ask me why i only teach such a small grp of ppl, so i told her straight tt since e others r not interested in coming for class, i cant be bothered to teach them. if there is only 1 person in class willing to learn, then i will only teach tt one. it doesnt bother me anyway, better still, i save my voice. n i told her tt those who r in class n listening passed e test, those disappeared somewhere else all failed e test... so yah lor. whether they want to come or not is up to them lor... i cant be bothered liaoz. in fact, me n sharon both agree tt we would rather u dont come to class than u come to class n disturb everyone. if u dun wan to study, get lost please.... its better for me n for e rest. so im gonna let them be lor... no pt wasting my breathe on them....

then had relief at 3/9... when i walked into e class, i thought i was in 3/1 or sth.... i got a shock... they were so quiet, doing their work, not like a normal tech class at all..... so surprised. they were so much more better behaved than my students, n so much more hardworking. i think this batch will do well for n levels... reallie. the only "crime" they committed was throwing paper bombs ard in class... haha~ seems more like lower sec kids than upper sec ones huh? some more e guys there all short short cute cute one.... kekekeke~ n e girls not hiao one lor.... so i got a shock.

saw my juniors after work, turns out mr lee asked them back to help him w peer tutoring, to tutor his physics students. talked to them for a bit while waiting for sharon to finish marking. then she finish le, i bid them farewell n left.... haha~ well, gd luck to them !!! haha~ hope their students more better-behaved than mine. hehe~

cross-country this fri... im on duty. doing one of e checkpts... gonna be at macritchie again... hehe~ oh well.... brings back memories.... reminds me of my time there running... hahaha~ always top 50 one... :P hee~

kies, tt all fer now, chaoz!!!