well... im down to e cough now.... and all tt dust frm cleaning my rm doesnt help... :( made me cough more instead....

so i've been at home fer like 4 days.... getting to be very sian.... haha~ my driving test is coming fri, so ive been spending my time studying for it... haha~ :P sianz...... aiee..... 1 more week left at aes.... hmm... been cracking my head over wad to get fer my students.... hmm....

watched 12 angry men today.... they juz happened to b showing it on mgm.... well, i got sick of inhaling all tt dust, so i took a break, went channel-surfing and hey! they were showing 12 angry men.... haha~ well.... its a drama extract i studied b4... think it was mrs razal's class... so yah.... reallie interesting show.... this jury of 12 men have to decide whether or not this boy accused of murder is guilty or not. if he is, he dies. if not, he lives..... so these 12 men spend a long time locked up in a rm arguing on whether or not he is guilty.... it like trivalizes the boy's life....as though he is not impt.... one of the men cant decide, he keeps switching sides, another juz gave his vote as not guilty to break the tie (cos he wants to go watch his baseball game), another asserts tt e boy is and always will be guilty cos he says he is, n everyone born frm a bad neighbourhood is guilty (e irony here being tt one of e jury was frm a bad neighbourhood n he turned out alright), n another man refuses to accept tt e boy is not guilty cos he believes tt all shd juz accept wad was said in court (ie, boy = guilty).... i sorta wanted to slap tt guy in e face for being so stupid... sigh. in e end, they managed to convince e others to switch to not guilty n let e boy live.... so yah. e whole show (or drama) is juz tt. 12 men in a rm arguing whether or not e boy is guilty... but is really interesting watching them break down e case bits by bits.... n persuading e rest to let e boy live.... yepz.

back to work tmr.... im almost done w my rm.... only left w tt cupboard containing my accessories n a hidden bag containing everything he gave me.... i dread having to clean tt shelf n having to see tt bag cos i know myself.... i will definately open it n have a look, n slowly look through everything.... its wad i always do w all e stuff ppl gave me.... except none gives e pain his will give.... juz today i i found e stashed away wrapping paper he used to wrap our 1 mth pres w.... e lil heart he folded still intact..... i had to force myself to throw it away.... yah.... i threw away lotsa things... ha.. oh well....

hungry.... argh.... :P muz jian fei.... sigh.... betta go prepare fer work tmr... chaoz! pray e students have become angels over e weekend okie?

my boo - usher n alicia keys

[Usher intro:]

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

[Alicia intro:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock

[Usher Verse:]

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

[Alicia Verse:]

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia:]
I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

[Usher:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Alicia:]
My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

[Chorus:]
[Usher:]
It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taking over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

[Alicia & Usher:]

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
This is the only way
We know how to rock





well...e good news is that my high fever is gone.... my temp has dropped to 37.5.... e bad news is now i have really bad running nose n cough.... sianz.... oh well....

watched my fav teen movie juz now, 10 things i hate abt you... i love tt show! hehe~ juz makes me feel better everytime i watch it! hehe! i've watched it so many times b4, but i still dont get sick of it... haha~ i juz love julia stiles, i think she's really talented. i've watched almost all her shows... heh!

tingren has found an english name.... kayley. she decided to get one cos she's so sick of ppl pronouncing her chinese name wrongly... they go like DING-ren instead of TING-ren... haha~ i've been thinking of getting one for a long time now, cos ppl cant pronounce my name either. they always go YUAN mei instead of YUEN mei.... at one pt of time they actually thought my name was YU mei... like hello? how diff can it get?! i got so fed-up once i went abt telling my netball mates to juz call me MAY... but then like a lil wierd ah... may lee yuen mei... like too many "mei"s in my name.... hahaha~ i've been toying ard w laviel for a while now.... seems really nice.... but most ppl who know me calls me angiez sometimes.... even though i call "angiez" my online nickname..... haha~ oh well.... hmm... laviel or angiez? im fine w angiez as long as u dun pronounce it as "angie" (like hello, whatever happened to the "z"???) ha.... me like assume so many diff personas ah? hehehe~

well... i got this frm my ex-gp teacher.... e latest news on our jj teachers.... mdm jacqueline lee has retired to become a stay-at-home mum, mrs tan-chiah n mr arnand have gone to moe, mr paul chow,mdm lim pow choo n 2 other teachers have gone to innovex(a new jc).... wow.... so many of my teachers left le... plus mdm lee ai hua who is at a sec sch now, miss latimer who is a counsellor, n mrs clare chan who is teaching at a poly.... now e only j1/2 teachers left at jj (who have taught me) r mrs sally chua, ms marilyn lim, mdm koh chou tee(yes.... she of all teachers is still there... n she's back to taking european hist... omg),ms pat lim(e new hod of english/gp), mr dore, mrs razal,ms yap (all three now teaching lit).... n im not sure if our chinese teacher is still there hahaha~... oops.... :P

SHARON!!!! i cant tag on ur blog... :( ur blog dun like me.... hahaha~ anw, how's w kids these 2 days ah? haha~ i sorta miss work.... beats being home w nth to do hahaha~ :P

tt's all fer now... chaoz!




sick sick sick... so sick i din go to work todae.... e doc was even scolding me for contemplating gg to work, he gave me two days mc.... ha~ no work todae n tmr n long rest during weekends.... i have high fever... last measured 39.9... omg.... then i keep having aches n shivering... then i have cough, sore throat n a lil running nose... to top it off my aunty came so im have cramps.... sianz. dun even feel like moving.

ytd i popped two tablets of panadol into my mouth, then went to slp. slept frm 4 plus to 7 plus, woke up, have dinner. then after watching my lucky charm, went to slp, but this time din take panadol, took cough medicine n flu medicine instead. so ended up i was in pain, kept tossing n turning until 3 am.... then i gave up, went to take panadol again (zy was scoldin me for taking it on an empty stomach, but wad to do, my house here is all biscuits one)... so i slept until my mum woke me up at 6.10, then she tell me not to go to work. so my bro woke me up again at 6.30, then i called e office. they told me i have to call back n tell e hod at 7... so slept until mum woke me up at 7.10, then i called n talked to mr lee wei meng.... then i tried to go back to slp, but by tt time e effects of e panadol was wearing off, so i was in pain again... sianz. tossed n turned until 10.30, gave up. woke up.... could barely speak... haha~ watched some cartoons b4 gg to see e doc at 11.30.

so many ppl seh... wait for some time b4 its my turn. e doc says i have high fever, forbid me to go to work tmr, say i muz rest... so yah. then after tt, collect medicine, it was like 32 bucks!!! cos of e antibiotic, they had to give me this ex n strong one... so yah. they din accept nets, so i had to like cross e road n walk to e atm in e sweltering heat, get money, then walk back again to pay n collect my medicine. then walk back again to buy lunch, then walk home.... i felt so hot n tired, i couldnt walk straight. felt like i was gonna faint soon.... sianz. so i reach home, had my lunch, supposed to be kway tiao teng, but they dun have fishball, so they gave me kway tiao soup n wan tan mee's liao... haha~ ok lor... but i still prefer kway tiao teng... nvm tmr can try again. then i took my medicine, one huge anti biotic, two flu tablets n 1 tablespoon of cough medicine... but i din feel like sleeping, so im here. anw, i have to wait for my office to call me back.

ritez, tt all fer now... fer all u peeps out there, u may have seen this during gp lesson, but anw i like this so im posting it here. its "politics: two cows philosophy". enjoy!!!

Politics made easy:
The Two Cows Philosophy

FEUDALISM:
You have two cows. The lord of the manor takes some of the milk. And all the cream.

PURE SOCIALISM:
You have two cows. The government takes them and puts them in a barn with everyone else's cows. You have to take care of all the cows. The government gives you as much milk as you need.

BUREAUCRATIC SOCIALISM:
You have two cows. The government takes them and puts them in a barn with everyone else's cows. They are cared for by ex-chicken farmers. You have to take care of the chickens the government took from the chicken farmers. The government gives you as much milk and as many eggs as the regulations say you should need.

FASCISM:
You have two cows. The government takes both, hires you to take care of them, and sells you the milk.

PURE COMMUNISM:
You have two cows. Your neighbours help you take care of them, and you all share the milk.

RUSSIAN COMMUNISM:
You have two cows. You have to take care of them, but the government takes all the milk.

DICTATORSHIP:
You have two cows. The government takes both and shoots you.

MILITARISM:
You have two cows. The government takes both and drafts you.

PURE DEMOCRACY:
You have two cows. Your neighbours decide who gets the milk.

REPRESENTATIVE DEMOCRACY:
You have two cows. Your neighbours pick someone to tell you who gets the milk.

AMERICAN DEMOCRACY:
The government promises to give you two cows if you vote for it. After the election, the president is impeached for speculating in cow futures. The press dubs the affair "Cowgate". The cows are set free.

INDIAN DEMOCRACY:
You have two cows. You worship them.

BRITISH DEMOCRACY:
You have two cows. You feed them sheep brains and they go mad. The government gives you compensation for your diseased cows, compensation for your lost income, a grant not to use your fields for anything else. And tells the public not to worry.

BUREAUCRACY:
You have two cows. At first the government regulates what you can feed them and when you can milk them. Then it pays you not to milk them. After that it takes both, shoots one, milks the other and pours the milk down the drain. Then it requires you to fill out forms accounting for the missing cows.

ANARCHY:
You have two cows. Either you sell the milk at a fair price or your neighbors try to kill you and take the cows.

CAPITALISM:
You have two cows. You lay one off, force the other to produce the milk of four cows. You are surprised when it drops dead.

SINGAPOREAN DEMOCRACY:
You have two cows. The government fines you for keeping two unlicensed farm animals in an apartment.

HONG KONG CAPITALISM:
You have two cows.
You sell three of them to your publicly-listed company, using letters of credit opened by your brother-in-law at the bank, then execute an debt/equity swap with associated general offer so that you get all four cows back, with a tax deduction for keeping five cows.
The milk rights of six cows are transferred via a Panamanian intermediary to a Cayman Isands company secretly owned by the majority shareholder, who sells the rights to all seven cows' milk back to the listed company.
The annual report says that the company owns eight cows, with an option on one more.
Meanwhile, you kill the two cows because the Feng Shui is bad.

ENVIRONMENTALISM:
You have two cows. The government bans you from milking or killing them.

TOTALITARIANISM:
You have two cows. The government takes them and denies they ever existed. Milk is banned.

POLITICAL CORRECTNESS:
You are associated with (the concept of "ownership" is an outdated symbol of your decadent, warmongering, intolerant past) two differently-aged (but no less valuable to society) bovines of non-specified gender. They get married and adopt a calf.

COUNTER CULTURE:
Wow, dude, there's like ... these two cows, man. You got to have some of this milk.

SURREALISM:
You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.

taken frm : http://www.weirdity.com/jokes/twocows.shtml




sick...real sick.... having dry cough, running nose, slight fever n my whole body aches so much, juz moving abt is a chore. when i showered, it was so painful.... sigh.... so tired... i actually slept during my breaks... haha~ sianz.... considering if i shd go to work tmr... shd i or shd i not? hmm.....

ah... i suddenly went brain dead.... cant remb wad i wanted to type... ha... oh no, brain cells depleting!!!! sigh..... oh yah.... there was this time, i was chasing after mrs gan, n i got locked out of e staffrm cos i forgot to bring along my pass. then i saw sharon abt to enter, so i sorta yelled her name n ran over, down e corridor. i think i scared e students. they muz be thinking was is this mad teacher doing running up n down corridors.... hahaha~ then i skidded to a stop in front of e door, n mrs norman, who was abt to come out, got a shock. haha~ betcha nvr seen a teacher behaving like tt b4.... haha~ then sharon say i very cute.... like all my colleagues saying tt abt me whenever i do sth klutzy or sth... :P haiz....

we were talking abt ghost stories n all, then i mentioned apple's "ghost story"... makes me miss my sch days... i miss all my franz.... my class 03a3.... my sisters.... my brothers.... my juniors.... my seniors.... my teachers.... haha~ all my council mates... my eldds mates.... wah so many!!! heh~ wonder wad they all doing now... so long nvr see idayu, nisa n jasmine le.... dun see pei xuan ard also.... nvr see brenda too.... all my classmates nvr bump into them one.... then miss my franz nadiah, yati, qammie, wenhui n tingren... when can we have our prata date ah? haha~ then my council mates, hope can have full council gathering one day.... n zhiyu, johnson, desmond, chee chang, miq etc.... all who helped me thru.... :( miss crapping w all of them.... haha~ now i see my students, remind me of my life before.... though i not as notorious la! haha~ :P sigh.... miss all of them....

argh... i really brain dead le.... think i shall go slp slp....to go or not to go? hmm....




recieved news todae, i have two more weeks to go! e clerk was so scared that i thought it ends today, she was reminding me to come in tmr... hahaha~ dunno to feel happy, or sad or wad... haha~ glad to dun have to STUDY chem anymore, but i'll miss my students... hehe~ esp my darlings in 3/6... haha....

3/6 kept coming into 3/7 todae, they din allow me to conduct my lesson. they kept asking me to take over fer physics as well, and they keep saying they wan to go break their chem teacher's leg.... ha~ so mean.... end up i had to chase all of them out, short of using the broom only. that would have been a sight. a teacher chasing students along the corridors with a broom... ha~

me, dora, sharon and eileen wore black today, its like so coincidental. i din even realized it until eileen mentioned it while on e way down for lunch. haha~ so is like whenever our colleagues walk past us or sth, they will be like "do u know that u r all in black today???" hahaha~ so funny.... esp since like only e four of us like eating n walking together... haha~ then all of us wearing skirts some more... heh~

wells, seeing 3/8 again tmr.... another day. let's hope i wont have to yell like a mad woman again, shall we? heh~




payday tmr!!! yippee!!! hehe~ me wan go shopping!!! hahaha~ :P 1 more day of rest b4 facing those kids again... hahaha~ :P i hope to not have to do any screaming next week... haha~

u lied to me all these while... u cheated me. u gave me false promises and false dreams all these while.... y did u do this to me? what have i ever done to u? all i ever did was to try to make u happy.... and all u ever did was to hurt me. until now, u r stil hurting me! u have broken every shred of trust i had in u. forget e promise i made to u, i dont owe u anything anymore, it is u who owe me! now that u're gone, im glad i can finally move on. I HATE U! i hate u for lying to me, for cheating me, u know how much i treasure wad we had, yet u lead me on! why? thanks for nothing! sending u off is the last thing i will ever do for u. no more. we're through!




this morn, woke up early to go mk house n pass him thing. tt idiot so slow until make me go his house, then make me so late in meeting my fran. end up talking to his father while waiting for him, haha~ realised he knows quite a bit abt penang.... surprise surprise... haha~ my fav part of food heaven.... hehe~

after tt, tt idiot drag me to take mrt w him... sigh. see him tmr gg ns, then let him lor.... but on e train sth happen, then his mood change.... dunno wad happen now... anw, he end up taking w me to ps there, then he take cab to tt place, say faster. so i went to mos burger to meet jamie... hehe~ long time nvr see her le... been almost 6 mths!!! ha~ wad to do... she stay in the east, i stay in e west...

so we had lunch at mos burger, feel so bad, make her wait for so long... stupid mk, all ur fault! then she gimme my very very very belated bd pressie cum christmas prez... haha~ was so surprised when i saw she did a jigsaw fer me too!!! keke~ n a handphone chain... haha~ cos i give her e same also, only my jigsaw fer her is so much more bigger!!! haha~ when she saw it she was stunned.... hehe~ great minds think alike! hee~ this isnt e first time we gave each other similar items liaoz lor.... haha~

then went to watch meet the fockers... finally!!! wah... after so long, still have so many ppl!!! heeh~ e show super funny, worth e wait... hehe~ i like baby jack... keke~ say "asssssss hole..." haha~ i think barbara striesand is a great actress, and singer... so funny to watch her... hehe~ nice show, not w/o meaning too... though like exaggerated lah, but still.... worth getting e vcd kekeke~

me got new pants fer work!!! yippee!!! monday have to check w mr lee when is mrs ooi coming back, n how long will i be there for.... sigh... soon i'll have to look fer job again.... gonna be frictionally unemployed again... haiz... haha~ oh wells, tt all fer now, time to do some work!!! chaoz!




haiz... another day.... gd thing there's a long weekend, yay!!! no need to see my students fer 3 days!!!!!! so pissed w them.....

todae, 3/8 was gone for 40 mins!!!!! made me wait for them, i was slowly boiling w anger. when they were all finally in class, i exploded, and yah they pretty much got a shock. like i said, when i explode, my voice booms, so much so e next class students thought wad happened. and my students knew i was very very pissed cos my face was super black. w only 20 mins left, how to teach! end up this guy lost his hp and i had to conduct a bag search, and interrogations and all. end up whole period gone, plus i purposely took up half of their recess.

next was 3/7. im already in a bad mood, and they made it worse. tt stupid roy and sharil just kept distracting the whole class. if it wasnt cos im a teacher, i would have thrown a chair at them.reallie. stupid idiots who cant keep their mouths shut, next time i'll juz lock them out of class.

well, e only silver lining is 3/6, surprisingly gd today. prolly cos they know im in a bad mood. i juz found out im e care tutor of 3/6, n when they found out they were so happy. they keep asking me to be their care tutor and teacher for e whole yr. hahaha~ so sweet rite? then they all very cute lor.... ha. so when i told them i only have at most a few weeks left there, they were so sad.... haha~ its so nice to know tt i've motivated some of them to work hard for their n levels, and most of them have set their sights in taking o's and doing well.... jiayou jiayou!!!

yay!!! finally im going to meet jamie tmr!!!! n im gonna watch meet e fockers!!! hooray!!!! kekeke~ well, i've had enought shouting. time to rest those vocal chords of mine! kekeke~




well, camp's over, 'twas alright, frm my batch, only me, lay ping, jun hong, keith and vivien turned up in e end. chiang wei went home early... yup yup. this camp is e one w e most no. of casualties, 42. and also e camp w e most no. of parents coming for campfire. and also e camp w e most no. of pampered sec 1 students. and also e camp w e most no. of probs, ranging frm dunno how to do campfire to epilepsies and suicide attempts. in short, this is e most dramatic camp i have ever been to.

let's talk abt my students. from 3/6, there is jerome, an sc, who is forever sleeping (notably in my class). i shd consider getting an alarm clock and making sure it rings whenever he falls aslp.... but this is also one guy who knows his work. and there is kristopher, who loves music, and is interested in studying. he actually came up to me todae to ask for consultation after sch cos he was real sleepy today (thanks to e camp). so yah, nice to know tt. sean is another guy who asks me for consultations, cos he cant make it fer the extra thursday lessons(which is mandatory fer both science teachers and students). this guy is one ganjiong(how to spell ah??) spider... ha. his gd pal, cassandra, is e exact opp of him. she is more gung-ho, he is more erm....how to say ah... haha~ nvm... n there is christina, hu goes abt telling everyone im her da jie.... n there hakim, my chem rep, he super cute lah, n also e one w a strange fetish fer pipettes.... haha~ then there's aaron, e beng (or ex-beng) who is not tt beng after all... haha~ can see he is really smart and wants to study... gd gd.... n suresh who gives me a headache... haha~ these r e ppl who sticks in my mind anw... keke~

frm 3/7, there is e class clown, sharil, who is starting to get on my nerves cos he distracts e class alot. there is roy, who enjoys locking me outside e classrm and for some reason has volunteered to become my chem rep. there is elijah, this really hardworking guy who has low self-confidance when it comes to his studies. wish him all e best~ there is also sean (yes another one), who enjoys science but also quite playful. there is douglas, who can talk to me fer a long time but when it comes to serious studying he is lost, and there is e class rep who also likes to crap w me and also enjoys studying, and gives me valuable feedback....

well... fer 3/8, i dun reallie know them well enough yet... let's say they r really hard to get to know.... maybe i shd consider taking part in e bonding sessions too... haha~ well, hope tt tmr, their thirst fer knowledge seen in e previous lesson will cont.... keke~

tt's all fer now.... 2 more weeks to go.... having mixed feelings. im glad mrs ooi is coming back cos i feel tt they deserve a better teacher, someone more experienced and better at chem. but i also feel sad cos despite everyting, these students have helped me grow and have taught me so many valuable things. i owe a lot to them, and they r also very cute sometimes... haha~ well, i wish them all e best!




wah... todae i wanted to cry... i nearly blew my top off.... so pissed w my student, i lost it. i yelled and screamed at him, i was literally shaking w fury! it took all my self-control to prevent myself frm slapping him. this is what happened: i brought 3/6 down for their practical today, and i gave clear instructions to not touch anything else on their benches other than those they require for their prac. on top of this, i constantly reminded them not to touch these things, in particular, reminding e grp of guys behind (which includes tt idiot). after 5,6 times of remindings, tt guy still has to cheek to come and show me his "medicine", made up of e various acids and alkalis and solvents he mixed together. i stared at him, seriously i was at a lost for words, e nerve of him! and i juz lost it. i started yelling at him, and e whole class went quiet. this is e first time i yelled at a student, and he went too far. not only was he unapologetic, he could still argue w me and tell me there is nth wrong w what he is doing 'cos it did not explode! MY GOD, tt idiot honestly has no brains! and i started screaming at e whole class as well. i was asking them how many of them played w the chemicals, even after i have repeatedly warned them not to. i asked them if they wanted to burn e whole lab down, and result in e lost of our lives as well. i told them e only reason y i brought them down for prac was cos i TRUSTED tt they were mature and responsible enough, but obviously they were gg to betray tt trust. and i yelled at them straight tt next time i WILL ban them from gg for practicals, they WILL NOT even be allowed to step into e labs. i was just so pissed at them.... honestly, sometimes they just dont use their brains! my colleague who was helping me told me after tt tt she didnt know i could scream so loud, and tt i was quite scary. good. give them a shock. let's see how much longer they want to play this game. i will play with them, and when they hit tt edge, i will squash those imbeciles flat. e last thing they shd ever consider doing is getting on my nerves and making me lose it, cos i make sure they will pay. i ever made some guy cry b4 cos he was being such a jerk.

let's just say tt it is a bad day today. i juz recieved news ytd tt micheal was in e hospital, he couldnt breathe cos of e large amt of phlegm in his chest. but due to e high cost, his parents could not afford to keep him there, so they r pushing for him to be discharged by this weekend. when i heard it, i was so scared for him. he lost control of his nervous system, and im so scared it would get worse. and obviously my students chose a brilliant time to get on my nerves. anw, i visited him at e hospital today, he was sleeping when i arrived, he looked so peaceful.... but then e nurse came in and woke him up cos they needed to feed him and all... and after tt i could see e pain he felt, even though he smiles whenever he saw me. what can i do for him? i dont know what can i do for him.... im at a lost. to think someone younger than me has to go through this helplessness year after year after year, sometimes i wonder why is it tt god is so cruel as to let him suffer like this. but yr after yr, he is like this, and yr after yr, i see him slowly deteriorating.... and yet i cant do anything for him..... i left e place feeling so sad.... what can i do?

mr mathai was also at e hospital, we talked. he was there to visit his friend's wife, who was having complications w her pregnancy.... so we talked a little b4 gg off... yah. such a small world.

tt's all... gg to join e sec one camp tmr.... yah. chaoz!




ha.... so long nvr blog... tired.... hehe~ teaching is so tiring... cos have to wake up so early every day!!!!!!!!! hehe~ sianz.... muz protect voice also....

anw, sat was e ntu seminar, me, feli n wenhui went for their talks. saw so many jjcians there, and while waiting fer wenhui i bumped into alvin ang.... yah lor, so suay... haha~ then sit there n kena bully by him... :( keke~ or is it e other way ard???? hmmm..... heh~ ne way, wenhui came, then abt to start le, so we left... then me n feli go ballrm 3, wenhui go ballrm 1... first talk we attended was on accountancy and business.... yepz. all e talks r in 1 hr blocks, starting frm 11... yep yep.

so anw, tt talk din really interest me, cos i cant really do tt course. dun have maths c, econs also not gd, so i juz go w feli. e second talk was more interesting, in ballrm 1 w wenhui, on art, design and media, then e course very interesting lor, on drawing, animation, body movements, scripwriting n all.... how i wish i was tt artistically inclined.... some more their new building really nice lor.... *envy*

n then it was lunch @ bugis... hehe~ cos e talks at tt time slot mainly bio ones, then all of us no bio, so go makan. went back to same place me, feli n lp ate last time, then we order e same drinks, n i had fish baked rice!!!!! yummies.... so cheesy!!!!!!! kekeke~ yum yum yum....

after lunch, back to talks, this time it was e humans n social sciences one, all e chinese,eng,econs,psychology n sociology courses under this fac, then have a lot of ppl, until me n feli have to sit on e floor.... so yah. keke~ their eng course is like a mixture of lit n media, so diff frm nus... nus if take eng is purely eng lang... yepz.... sounds interesting. after tt was nie talk, after my teaching experience, i dun think i'd really like to be a teacher cos of all e extra workload teachers have to take on nowadays.... serious. currently im only doing 20% of a teacher's workload n im already tired, become full-time teacher then how? haha~ so yah.... sth fer me to consider.... most of e relief teachers working w me also having second thoughts on whether to join nie...

after those talks, it was time fer shopping!!! keke~ bought my white spaghetti blouse, then we went to orchard, mi bought new shoes to replace my old ones and feli bought her bag.... then i went down to bukit timah to meet my family fer dinner... yepz.

on sunday, woke up bright n early fer e instructor's training camp. its fer innotrek, then e campsite is @ diary farm there, which is like so near my workplace. then saw my sch ppl, all having charity stuff on tt day too, saw some of my students some more... haha~ anw, made a lot of new franz there.... yepz. think have 19 jjcians, me,feli,nisa,millah,izean,dayah,fara,silvest,zhiyu,edmund,jing yuan(i think), kayne,miq,cody,farhan, lay ping n erm.... cant remb le... hahaha~ard there lah... keke~ then have other ppl go there fer training also, have 1 guy is currently studying in perth!!!! so cool rite.... *envy*... anw, we had briefing, ice-breakers, games, station games n we learnt belaying n all... my second time belaying,hahaha~ but i prefer being e ankle.... keke~ anw, it all ended at 5 plus, then i rush home... haiz. have to finish typing my notes fer my students.... yepz.

today, nth much. din bother screaming at them anymore, too noisy, i juz stand there and stare at them until they keep quiet... tmr another class... w 3/8. a new teacher was also complaining to me abt them, haha~ think i'll use back e same method, but this time i intend to sit there until they keep quiet.... wad for suffer rite? heh~ according to tt teacher, she juz stood there n stare at them fer 1 whole hr, din bother teaching even when they were quiet... heh~ we shall see how it goes tmr... keke~

ritez, tt all fer now! rebonding my hair tmr, yippee!!! c'ya!




wow..... one week of teaching, finally, e weekend!!!! a break!!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!! time to rest those vocal chords of mine.... hahaha~ so tired... and im not even doing e full workload of a teacher... hahaha~ sapped of energy.... argh.... and i have to spend my weekend typing out notes fer my students..... it'll be so much easier if i was teaching english, or a subject tt i'm passionate abt.... such a chore to read up on stuff u thought u finally got rid of 2 yrs ago. oh well, tt's e job of a teacher, students first. at least most of students r nice and cute! :)

ytd was jj night.... wah... rushed home after work, showered, napped, and went to jj... didnt get to see leeann though.... then we slacked ard until e jj night started. other than e counillors tt went back, miq, vivek, kabi, farrick, drizzle and her franz were there as well.... wad can i say? it was quite a disappointment... since when was f1 green?! it's always been purple!!!!!!!!!! and more traditions were broken as well.... like they split e performance into half, but e break btw e performances was so long such tt when they asked everyone to sit down and contd watching e performance, we were like -_-"... super anti-climax lah... and by tt time it was 11 liaoz, so most of us seniors... working mah... haiz. then e high part was when it was mass dance, miq my dance partner, ha tt guy so vain, keep doing his hair... like wad lor, worse than girl.... haiz.... then there was this part, we dance e new song, then he super excited lah.... cos he wan to dance w chiobu, then say he retain next yr gd liaoz... e dance super cute lor... haha~ then he so mean, ask me to retain also..... dots... slap him seh..... and then, e songs part, we all arms ard e shoulder, he suddenly hold my hand and look at me, then i stare at him, then i was like, "eeee!!!!!! ur hand is sweaty!!!!!!!! let go!!!!" then he say its not, then dun wan to let go, then i keep saying it is lor... let go! then he say its not.... its hair gel.... dots..... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idiot.... dance w him super dangerous seh.... dance rock ard e clock, he suppose to spin me, i nearly end up flying... omg.... yah, and then we keep making fun of vivek, he wear cap cos he botak, then we purposely pull off e cap, then he so pai seh cos he botak, then he hurriedly wear e beanie, then he wear wrong side or he wear until e whole thing cover his face, super funny lor.... keke~ then we down there entertaining ourselves, dance chori chori and all... haha~ so is we high cos we entertain ourselves... haha~

then todae i go sch, so tired, but cannot show. then i have 3/7 and 3/6 todae, yay!!! keke~ so bring them to lab, then they ask me i not tired meh, ytd go back jc and scream like mad, ha, they wan holidae... :P too bad... i still have voice, still can teach... keke~ then show them how to use burette and pipette and all.... liaoz tt 3/6 arh, treat my chem class like one sex class like tt, burette become a condom (durex) and pipette become a female part (translate pet pet to canto)... -_-" so when i ask them how do u tell e diff btw a burette and a pipette, they very smart lah, say pipette is female and burette is male.... -_-""""" sigh... cannot stand them... haha~ then have this guy, he forever laughing when he hear pipette lor, then i was teasing him, say i'll get a pipette for him on his birthdae, then in e lab, he sit in front of the pipette some more, and was so fascinated w it... haiz.... haha~ cmi... keke~

then had lunch w dora and zhi hui todae, fiona have lessons... then we talk abt students and e illusionary difference btw a "bad sch" and a "gd sch".... yah... tt steven last min cancel lunch lor, suddenly busy, then like tt e others dun wan to meet le.... haiz.... nvm, can have bonding session w my colleagues... kekeke~

recieved a job offer todae, to be a camp instructor at this new company... then im considering. if is long-term, can do for 6 months and work is frequent, then i'll quit my current job... cos e camp one more stable mah.... is like if relief work 1 mth or slightly more than have to look for another job again, if can find one straight for 6 mths and salary is reasonable then i'd rather do tt job lor... so yah. im considering... then i discuss w ms lee and fiona also, they also encourage me to do tt.... esp since i wanna be camp instructor, dream holiday job.... hahaaha~ then is like earn 160 for 3 days two nights, although lesser than wad i earn now, it is still considered alot lor.... so considering.... i wan to find out more abt e company first, yep.... then also i muz plan lor, cos cannot halfway throw my students like tt, so if i quite also have to work until they find another relief teacher to replace me, then i also intend to teach them until finish chapter 2 like tt cos like i planned for those lessons already.... so yah.... muz see lor.... how how how.... haha~

tmr gg ntu seminar... yep yep.... ritez, gg to type out notes now, chaoz!






second day of sch... wow... wad a day.... i went to bed last nite feeling nervous, after all, today is my first day having to teach them.... i didnt know how i would fare and i was beginning to doubt my abilities...

so i went for my first lesson feeling a little apprehensive. i could only thank my lucky stars tt my first class was 3/7.... such a nice and cute bunch of students.when i went in there, they all went back to their seats and greeted me enthusiastically. so i started my first lesson, w a lil ohp probs, but e peeps there r so nice, they forgave me for tt, and even assisted me. thruout e lesson, they would give feedback like whether i was gg too fast or too slow, and ask qns if they r not sure. i must admit, i was kinda surprised. their attitude was like tt of an express class, if not better. i thank them for being patient w me, and for doing their best at putting me at ease... i guess they could see tt i was kinda nervous, and they kept telling me to relax. so nice rite? and so, w them, i finished teaching chapter 1 in 45 mins, and e remaining 10 we used it to play more lame games.... at e end of e lesson, they brightened my day by telling me tt they wished i could teach them longer, cos they said tt e lesson is fun... im glad they enjoyed it. they were even discussing abt, albeit jokingly, gg to e hospital and asking their chem teacher not to come back and all... haha~ so cute rite? this is one class i look forward to teaching, and at e end of e day, this is e class who gives me e strength and patience to carry on.... i hope tt this relationship will last till e end...

3/8 was a diff story. as usual, e guys crowded in one corner at e back of e classrm, save for a few.... they didnt want to listen, so there really wasnt much i could do. so i left them alone, trusting them to control themselves, however, save for 1 or two, e others were a disappointment.... but cant say i didnt expect it... even if u're a prefect, u get this kind of behaviour, so i wasnt bothered by it. as long as they dont disturb e others, fine w me... so tt was how i went abt e lesson, alas, their ohp spoilt, so i had to draw on e board.... kinda confusing really cos they didnt really know which section it went under... but yah. and then w this class, when they didnt understand, they didnt ask, and i thought they understood, so i carried on, and it got to e pt where this girl said to me "i dont know what e hell r u here for!" so i looked at her and i asked her," u dont understand is it?" and she said yes, so i asked her "if u didnt understand, y didnt u stop me and ask?" so i start all over again.... but yah, i didnt really let it affect me, at first i was a lil upsight, i mean u teach halfway, already having prob controlling e class and suddenly someone says this to u.... but i juz carried on, nth u can do anw.

well, so i finished e first chapter for two of e classes,will be seeing 3/6 tmr... oh well.... tmr, im seeing 3/8 again, first thing in e morning. well, i'll be bringing them to e lab and let them familiarise themselves w e apparatus, and will be giving them worksheets to do there and then... yep....

and guess wad? my shoe clasp broke.........again. e exact same pair... my mum covinced me it wouldnt break, cos we went to repair it, but then one of my students accidentally step on it, and e clasp broke, again..... so in e staffrm, e teachers helped me to think of ways to repair it and get me thru tt day, so we ended up tying strings ard it, bounding e two straps together.... heh~ lucky i only have one class for relief left... yepz. not bad worhz, i got thru e rest of e day w no mishaps...

let's hope tmr will be a better day, shall we? thanks 3/7!!!




rite, so i got a call late afternoon, yesterdae, frm mr lee wei meng, asking me to go back to aes and teach sec 3 normal acad chem... i didnt want to, i mean like hello, i havent touch tt subject for like 2 yrs!!! and i dont even have a particular interest in it!!! but then mr lee persuaded me, he says give it a shot, some more is like e first few introductory chapters, shd be no prob.... in a way yah la, my prob w chem is only e last few chaps, esp organic chem.... so yah.... since he say until like tt, so ok lorhz.... some more is like 1 mth only..... gain experience also not bad....

so, i started my work today... such a short notice rite, ytd call, today start work, i didnt even have anything ready.... reached sch 7.10, briefed by mr lee, got my timetable, was free until 10, so i met mrs chen and she gave me some tips and materials... then went down for recess w fiona and came up in time to go for my first lesson...

my first class: 3/8. i was a bundle of nerves, i didnt reallt know wad to do, or wad to expect. so when i walked into e class, i didnt know wad to do... and like half e class was gone to e toilet.... so yah. anw, this class was a goner, talk to them nicely also dun wan, yell at them then they listen, i think my throat end of e mth no voice liaoz.... but i also dun wan to yell, i dun like yelling so much... but they dont really give me a choice... e class is like quite divided lah, chinese guys sit in one grp, i call e "beng" grp, talk loudly at e top of their voice... and then there is this grp of chinese girls, e "lian" grp, dun tuck in, skirt short short, dun tie hair, sit there and gossip and all.... and there r e guai ones and e sleepyheads... such a nice combi. honestly i dun really know wad to do w them. y? cos this class has pretty much given up hope on themselves, juz look at their body language. e spent e previous two periods sleeping.... and sleeping... they dun wan to study, and they dun even know if they wanna go to poly... quite terrible... but a few were real nice and u can tell they wan to study.

so after tt, came back feeling slightly downcast... wad a bad experience for a first class... i was beginning to worry tt my other two classes will be like this too... then how am i gg to survive for 1 mth? 1/2hr break passed by too fast, soon, i was to meet my second class.....

welcome to 3/7... well they were rather nice, taking out hw and all to do, and interacting w me. really quiet as well... w this class, i was able to play some lame games w them, and they really liked it... can tell. so i told them, during future chem lessons, during e breaks i give them, we can play games, or tell jokes, but e students would be e ones looking up on jokes and all, of course i'll tell if i have any... so ppl, got any gd jokes or lame games tell me hor....

after 3/7, it was 3/6. 3/6 more studious, all take out hw and do... then they were also e only class to greet me.... so since im relief, not taking them for chem, i let them do their work... played lame games w them for a while, but they had no patience to guess e ans, so after a while, they went back to doing their work while i interacted w some students. there was this guy, we talked abt music. i learned tt he wants to pick up e sax and e piano... then there was this gal who talked to me abt her guy probs.... so yah.. this class also quite interesting...

so after tt, printed out notes fer tmr, then left... met zy fer lunch, bumped into my student and her mum. e thing abt na students is tt when they see their teachers they acknowledge u in a friendly manner, wheres express students usually juz nod their heads or ignore u... yep. anw after tt, came home... right, betta go prepare fer lessons.... jj night on thurs!!! chaoz!






went out fer lunch w zy todae at westmall... heh~ finally got my lunch treat... hahaha~ but i help he save money worhz... purposely eat cheap cheap one... keke~ shd thank me... haha~ :P anw, tt guy blur, he forgot todae was 1st day of sch, then he tot e ppl wear sch uni cos they have remedial or sth... yah ah... all e students of singapore having remedial todae ar.... haha~ saw some aes peeps, none of them i know... i borrowed a book todae :) called e planets, e reviews says e book is really zanny... hmm... keke~ shall read and find out!!! but hor, read e blurb liaoz, yah, looks like its gonna be one wierd and funny ride!!! hehe~ anw, tt guy meeting weijie at 2.20 to go fer job interview as beer promoter, so we left at 2... he ask me want to be beer promoter or not, but my parents aure dont allow one... haiz... they this dun allow, that dun allow, how to find job like tt.... haiz...

anw, jamie called me!!!! keke~ she came back frm japan liaoz... i miss her!!! long time no see le... keke~ anw, she is free this thurs, so i'll be meeting her fer movie and dinner!!! hehe~ will be watching meet e fockers w her!!!! keke~ yay!!! keke~

tmr gg johnson house to take e samurai x comics frm him... yay!!! some more books to read... haha! i like too long nvr read storybooks liaoz, now keep reading... keke~ oh no... i becoming bookworm!!! hehe~ :P

anw, inland revenue authority have some office jobs, think i'll apply, waiting for parents to come home to discuss.... lay ping, want to apply w me??? hehe~ anw, steven gg into ns liaoz, 4/1 peeps, we all meet him fer meal one???? haha~ this weekend??? and tingren, good luck to ya!!! take carez!!! *muackz* i free will sure visit u one... promise!!! alrightz, here r e grad nite pics, as promised!!!

Grad Nite 2004:

class of 03a3, hunks n babes~


pretty? keke~


all the mei nu


a3 peeps n mrs razal


shenlyn n me!!!


babes galore!!!


aunty brenda n me (she looks less aunty todae hor... keke~)


me n idayu~


babelicious~


one of e best teachers ard : ms lim!!!


a3 babes n ms lim


me, bao yue and an extra.... ha~


the one n only student service!!!!


miq so dao~ haha~


more babes :)


my first fran frm JJ: Fathli!!!


council babes


the demures! keke~


me and e racoon... haha~


vivien, me n wingyan... look so diff!!!


ping ping n me


soon-to-be ns boy and me


ah....nvr look at cam take pic for wad!!! hehe~


keke~ me, johnson n feli!













some pics i took earlier on...


me in bed! hehe~


dayu n me~




me n zhiyu


nisa n me~


des n me~ ha he eating halfway when we take pic... :P


me n tingren at long john's... 2nd time there


me n aunty brenda! keke~


my dear sistas... keke~ miss 'em...


me n qammie!!!!









tried to come up w a new layout for this new yr but alas, tt layout have some probs w e tabling, so i switch back to this layout for e time-being, until i can figure out wad is wrong... yepz. okies, and also i promise to upload all e grad nite fotos on this blog, actually i've uploaded e pics to my laptop, but fer some reason or other, i cant update my blog using e laptop, i keep getting signed out frm blogger, so now, i have to load e pics to my comp... so yah, i'll do tt tmr... keke~ okies, back to today...

w a new yr, i hope to make a new start and forget abt last yr. but seems like my parents r making it really hard for me to do tt.... everytime they r ard, they'll ask mi abt my job thing, they want to make a fuss out of it. they dun allow me to move on, they want me to hold on to e textbks and make a fuss, complain to e teacher and act really upset.... like hello? as if they will take me back like tt... if i do tt, it juz goes to show im not matured, and they will definately not hire me, have they ever thought of tt?! of course not, all they care abt is tt their name is saved, since they consider it shameful tt i lost my job... like what the hell... and instructions have been given to my bro to tell any teacher who asks tt im not doing well, tt i always lock myself in my rm, blah blah blah... oh my god, i've suddenly become so fucking pathetic cos my parents want me to be so! idiots man... they r ruining my future... cant they juz drop e subject? cant they juz move on, like i am? why all these fuss? its a screwup, yes, but dont tell me they nvr screwed up b4? so yah, i was upset, but it doesnt help tt im upset, i juz have to move on! tt was past, i juz want to move on, and find a new job. how i wish they'll juz shut up already! but they wont listen to me... of course not, im not important, im juz a tool for them! assholes..... and to make things worse, they r only giving me a week to look for a job! like hello?! since they cant vent it all on e sch, they r venting their anger on me! they say a week later, if i cant get a job, i have to do volunteer work! i dont mind volunteer work except for e fact tt i'll starve to death in e process cos i wont get paid, and my parents wont be giving me any allowance! so how e hell am i gg to volunteer when i have no cash on me! god, i juz wish they will use their brains! and of course, my dad has to accuse me of lazing ard not doing anything and being lazy.... HELLO? LAZE ARD!!! was he born on mars or sth?! hey! he was e one who forbid me to look at other job options after i signed up for relief, and now he accuses me of lazing ard?! like how am i supposed to look for jobs when companies r closed for e new yr?! i cant belief how stupid he is! and they dont allow me to go job-hunting tmr cos i have to stay at home for what reason i dont know! so how am i suppose to look for a job, much more within a week?! argh!!!!!!! e stupidity of it all.... honestly, i cant stand them anymore! they r being so childish, and worse still, they r my parents! i feel so ashamed.... i dont know how am i gg to face those teachers in aes when i do go back to visit or wadeva.... my reputation is so gg to be ruined by them cos of their inability to let go! sheesh! somebody, PLS help me!

as it is, they always like to ruin my happy mood w their insensitivity.... oh well... so here's y i was happy: PHANTOM OF E OPERA!!!! yep! i watched e movie today w tingren, tt feli only had lunch w us, cos she has to meet kennard at 3... tt idiot. steal away my feli, muz go and scold him liaoz.... so anw, e movie is at one, and gosh, it was nice! so what if it left out some parts, e essential story is there... and it was quite nice.... and i was so excited when i heard e songs being sang, those familiar music and lyrics, i used to listen to them when i was a kid, and at 6 yrs old, i was singing phantom of e opera... like huh rite... yah... even my parents were shocked... yepz.... im so gonna buy e soundtrack man....

yep, e show was nice, i enjoyed it.... if given a chance, i'll want to watch e actual musical too.... yeah.... okies, tt's all, parents yelling at me again... argh!

phantom of e opera
Christine:
In sleep he sang to me
In dreams he came
That voice which calls to me
And speaks my name
And do I dream again?
For now I find
The phantom of the opera is there,
Inside my mind

Phantom:
Sing once again with me
Our strange duet
My power over you
Grows stronger yet
And though you turn from me
to glance behind
The phantom of the opera is there
Inside your mind

Christine:
Those who have seen your face
Draw back in fear
I am the mask you wear

Phantom:
It's me they hear

Both:
My/Your spirit and my/your voice
In one combined
The phantom of the opera is there
inside my/your mind

Chorus:
Hes there
the phantom of the opera
He's there the phantom of the opera

Phantom:
In all your fantasies you always knew
That man and mystery

Christine:
Were both in you

Both:
And in this labyrinth
Where night is blind
The Phantom of the opera is here/there

Inside my/your mind

Phantom:
Sing, my Angel of Music!

CHRISTINE
He's there,
the Phantom of the Opera . .

Phantom:
Sing...

Christine [Opera Singing...]

Phantom:
Sing...

Christine [Opera Singing...]

Phantom:
Sing for me...

Christine [Cont'd opera singing until the end...]

PHANTOM:
Sing My Angel Of Music!

(Christine cont'd on a higher note)

Phantom:
SING FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!

[CHRISTINE ON HIGHER NOTE... ENDS]





new yr's eve ytd!!! its a new yr!!!!!!!!!! yipee!!!!!!!!! bye bye 2004, say hi to 2005!!!!!!!!! im gg to start anew, its a fresh start. say bye to all e crap in 2004!!!!!!!! yue, tingren, muz start fresh yah? remb our pack!!!

alrightz, so i went for bbq ytd, liaoz heavy rain how to bbq. anw, met up w my old neighbours, all grown up liaoz, and other family friends... yepz. turns out one of them, leann, is gonna be my junior at jj!! she taking double science... then i found out she has an elder sister also frm jj last time one, then her sis now scholar some more.... wah!!!!!!! haha... then her sis also brought her bf along, and her bf also scholar.... wah!!!!!! anw, pei yan was w a new hairdo, then he like girl like tt, dun wan go into rain cos of his hair... liaoz... worse than girl.... ha... last time is he always bully me, now is i bully him... keke~ yipee!!!

then we went upstairs to leann's house, then play games.... play poker, blackjack, polar bear and murderer... then e youngest there is 8 yrs old, then she very cute lor... very innocent... like play murderer and blackjack, she keep saying she dun wan to die, then if kena killed she'll be upset, then she purposely wan to reveal e polar bears/murderer... then she hug her sis plead them dun kill ker sis... haha~ she so cute... then play murderer tt time, i keep kena e detective, then is like i look ard, e murderer's first victim always me one, then i always catch him b4 he can kill anyone... haha~ is like i happen to look at e murderer, then he will wink at me, then i will signal to him to open his card cos i caught him. then most of e time is peiyan who is e murderer, then is like not fun lor, cos he always caught liaoz then tell everyone i detective, then is like e other murderer dun dare to wink in front of me lor..... ha... so we play until 2 plus then go home... keke~

so yah, tt's my new yr eve... todae gg to micheal's house for dinner... heh~ abit tired liaoz haha~ kies chaoz!