didnt get accepted into sep. sigh. looks like im not good enough. saw the results, so many applicants appied for ubc. stupid choice to apply for tt uni then when obviously my horrid grades wont be able to help me make it. looks like i'll be stuck in singapore then. sigh. so freaking unbearable when all i want is to study overseas.

been raining the whole day. cant help wishing the freaking rain would stop so that my gi n hakama would dry in time for training tmr. dont even know if im up to training tmr. shall see abt it.

absolutely no idea how i'm going to break the news to my parents. dont wish to have to see that look in their eyes. dont need another to tell me how much of a freaking failure i am.

ah well, shdn't have expected anything out of it anyway. should have known i wont be able to make it. my bad.