sorry havent been on the past few days, been busy w school.... haven't been a gd week so far.... let me backtrack...

wed(11th august):
sch reopened todae. went to sch feeling damn tired, coz woke up super early, dad had to go airport. so yah, reached sch 6 plus, like one ghost town seh. went to class, nobody, juz plopped down and fell aslp. ha. woken up by yvonne. then lay ping msg, say she at class le. went down to look for her...showed her the band i did for marc... argh... not very happy w it. not straight one...sian. suckz.....

then had lessons..... and lessons.... oh ya, during civics period, had this talk by ntu ppl, after tt went to ask qns. turns out they'll be offering english, psychology etc as majors next yr. yay! finally, arts students have hope! all dun need to fight tooth and nail w each other and other science students for places in nus next yr.

then after sch, went jp to makan w lp...ate at kfc ha... then jalan jalan abit... went back to sch after tt to study w nadiah, wenhui, sharifah,zarifah and diyana. yah. study until sian, chat w mik fer awhile... he keep telling mi his bd tmr... ha... :P din hear tt! yah then marc toked to me.... sae bought keane cd.... asked mi if wan to borrow....anithing lorhz...gave him the pen, sorry not so nice...but first one i did la.... hope it brings u luck....but now i dunno if he'll even treasure it. maybe he'll juz throw it away. y am i still doing such things for him? why? why do i even care?

yah, then study abit more, went home. got scolding by mum. went to mug. tt all.

thurs(12th august)

went to sch w headache still....argh. shit man..... this is bad. todae, can go out for dinner. yay!

study session as usual, todae during gp, mdm lee ask us to do summary and aq on the vj paper...on consumerism..... sianz. so hard seh....can kill u. serious. all of us had a hard time w it...shit la. sianz sianz sianz....cody,gary and jasmine actually fell aslp doing it. haha. mi, chee chang and james discussed abit, ha. thankz chang fer being mi dictionary. hehe. yah. din finish aq, heh. dun care, bring home and do. :P so sian.

after sch, studied w wenhui, nadiah, kamariah and yati... yah. waiting for zhiyu. he finish sch le, scared mi in the canteen. idiot. told mi want to go makan tt time call him. yah. studied econs, production and cost. borrowed the notes frm a j1, liaoz the notes bloody thick la, thicker then ours. ha. read already damn groggy. haha. shows how well i actually know my work. so sian, study until nth can go in le, went walk walk w nadiah. yah. then went back, study some more. then go out fer dinner w zhiyu. ask marc want to come or not, he say not confirmed. then ask him to confirm, he nvr sae anithing. so i thought he not joining us le, decided to go westmall lorhz.

ha, bus trip dere, zhiyu kept crapping. he crazy one lah, this few days so crappy. hao leng worh..... think i froze dere le...:P if have lamers contest, u shd join man. think u'll freeze everyone inside dere.

went to foodcourt to makan, abt to start eating, marc called zy. sae he coming over... so i ate slowly....slow until my food gone cold le. ha. then my mum called, started scolding.haiz. keep getting scolding nowadays. she scold halfway my hp died. shit lor. had to hurry through my meal, tt mk haven reach yet. i was thinking it's impossible lor, 8.30 le still haven reach. zhiyu called him, his phone dead....sigh. we were like damn worried lor, thought sth happen to him. walked ard westmall looking for him...cant find him, no way to contact him either. so we left. i ask zy go to 174 bus stop tt route dere, might run into him, dun need to send mi to 77 dere le. so ya. then i missed my bus, sianz. on my hp, recieved msg frm mum asking mi to buy dinner for her. so went to kopitiam, missed another bus. ha. bought ban mian fer her. went back to interchange and stone, then was getting really really worried abt mk....msg silvest and cl asking if he was w them and all. abt to ask tr to help mi check if he's at home when he called. told him i still in interchange, then my hp died. he came over, toked to him for awhile, then he left....he was damn angry.... kept apologising. but he brushed me off.....then juz walked away. so i had no choice but to go back to e 77 bus dere.....cant chase him coz had to hurry home. reached e bus there only to realise i juz missed another bus....at tt time i was already damn upset la. upset tt he angry at me, mum angry at me, and e stupid buses kept driving away juz when i reached there...sian.

reached home, showered. got lecturing frm mum. juz kept quiet, no energy le.... then called marc....although he say he's not angry anymore, but i dont believe him. he still sounded unhappy..... shortly after, he sae wan go back online, so i hung up.... called zy....toked abit, update him on wad happened, then he tried to cheer mi up la...thankz. after tt called tr. chatted awhile, she and her alien ar....haiz.
then hung up...went to slp.....

fri(todae)

friday the thriteen...how true. sure is a bad day today.

early morn, kena lecturing frm mum, AGAIN. dunno wad's gotten into her. she juz came home, juz had another lecture by her juz now. im so sick and tired of it.

went sch, had hist tut....crapped w tiffy and kamsya. yah..... then had econs tut. sian. sian. sian. this time i brought my own notes, ha, she ask qn i can ans. yay! heh.

after sch, met lp and zhiwei in concourse. zw crazy le....got no money, still want to go town, wanted to drag me there as well...hha. but i had to wait for yuhua to pass her back the notes first, in the meantime settled some locker stuff. FINALLY, ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whee!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jump up and down...hahaha. yah. so lp and zw left first.... mi help johnson w gp....ha. remind mi of uwa tt time....heh. ya..... then he left for lesson, i sat dere reading econs notes, mkt structure. then yuhua finally came, returned her the notes, then went to jp to meet lp and zw. zw change mind, wanted to stay in jp instead...ha. she too lazy le. haha. on the way there, chatted w lin ping....(tt how u spell???haha) yah.... then went to look for them. found them in delifrance, ate dere. haha. mi and lp have been eating at delifrance quite alot huh? had the potato gratin set... bankrupt le...ha. was ok, but i still prefer the baked rice. next tues, mi and lp have date at swensons!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!! oven baked rice, here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.....zw dunno whether joining us or not....depends on jiexin. heh. then tr came and join us..... yah then i sat dere and stare at her eat.heh. she eat until damn slow lor, thnz to her tooth.

oh ya...i forgot.....at delifrance, marc called....he din sound tt happy.....then he ask mi if i still in jp, then ask if i gg back to sch...mi accompanying lp and zw lor....so told him i dun think so....then he like angry or sth, hang up....sian.... 2nd time make him angry le.... haiz. am i an idiot or am i an idiot? felt so sad after tt....but still plaster one smile dere.....after all no pt in spoling everybody's gd mood.....

then walked ard jp, zw wanted to buy clothes. tr left to meet her pj fran in lot 1. yah. we walk ard jp walk until sian le lar.... damn tired....bag darn heavy... ha bumped in cl and gerald at er...world of sports. yah. ha.

now im at home..... i think i've totally lost him le.... he's been rather unhappy w me e past few days..... its my fault.... i dont blame him if he gives up on me le.... besides, he's got someone new to chat w him and all le....zy told mi e girl's character like mine....was curious, went to read her blog, realised her k'ter not only like mine, but also she's gg through a diff time getting over her ex....juz like mi. both having the same sentiments, even wad we type also almost similar....freaky huh? ha.... maybe she's my long lost twin...hahaha. anw, im happy tt she's got mk to tok to...help her through...and happy tt he got someone else to crap w and confide in.....i guess he doesnt need me anymore....am i jealous? i guess i am....it shows i haven gotten over him yet....been trying, but kept failing.... now even when i look at him, i feel so sad.....there'll be a sharp pain in my heart..... i guess i don't really matter to him anymore....i've juz been a sidetrack....yah. well.... i hope tt, if he does end up liking e girl, and they do get together, i hope he'll nvr hurt her, and i hope tt she'll be able to get sth i nvr had......

as for me, im left to wonder these empty spaces alone. zhiyu getting kinda fedup w me le.... tr....well, she's more preoccupied w alien nowadays, cant blame her....... juz want to thank them both for being so patient w me.... wat an irony. in feb, johnson, zy, tr were all checking up on me, comforting me, making sure i dun do anything stupid, telling mi tt he will be alright....then it was a happy period, albeit shortlived, when he got better and things went on frm dere...... now, the 3 of em r comforting me, checking on me again, making sure i dont lose my mind and all, cos he's left me alone..... thanks to them and all those other ppl who have helped me keep my sanity in check....life goes on, as long as im occupied, i wont think abt him...... i shall not think abt him.....i dont want to think abt him anymore....its funny how he wanted to break so as not to hurt me anymore, but he's hurting me so much more now..... i guess i juz have to let him go now.... i've lost every possibility dere could be of us going back to before already..... i juz have to say goodbye now.... i hope u'll do well in life, and find ur true happiness soon. i pray tt u will be alright and recover, and tt god will look after u. i hope u'll find someone else to replace me. goodbye.....and thanks for everything. im sorry i hurt u, im sorry i made u angry, i hope u will have a better life now. i juz hope tt u will forgive mi for all the pain i put u through.

this sure is one long post...now im a quirkyalone again...maybe i'll remain one forever... i dont know.... i guess this is the end..... nth else left but to mug for a's...well... tt's all.... bye everyone.