hmm.... todae kena woken up at 8.30.... this time my downstairs neighbour was doing i-have-no-idea what but it was bloody irritating and damn loud. at 9 i gave up and woke up..... at 9.30 all e other neighbours having renovation started drillings..... i think i seriously need to buy ear plugs soon..... being deaf would be a blessing then.... haha.... talk abt noise pollution..... negative externality lah.... creating ext cost..... shd complain to e govt to internalise this cost.... wahahaha~ gomene... too much econs :P

then went to sch.... reached ard 11.30..... went to lib to study w yana and zarifah... met alicia there, she ask me la8er makan w her.... so i told tr i accompany alicia. anw, tr have baoyue they all to eat w, so i accompany alicia lorhz.... haha~ yah, study until 12.25, went to get my notes back frm jia hao(thank god). tt guy funny lah, pass me e notes, din say anithing, juz run off.... and i mean RUN.... nvr see tt guy run so fast b4 haha~ kk me mean.... :P

went back, study a while, then alicia wanted to makan.... so went to makan... she grilling me abt e chalet, then we talk abt e leadership camp tt ms kit lee msged me abt, then she tok abt oliver and e rest of our ex-classmates.... maryam gg fer chalet... yay!!! then alicia kept gg on abt how she wants keith to go cos he does e best stingray (haha)... then she kept gg keith.... keith..... machiam like lian ai (tt correct???)like tt... haha~ and then she purposely start to grill me abt my "love" life.... she kept saying XXX likes me, hai wo nearly choked on my food... arh, y she say until like tt...???? ?_? i so desirable meh???? wahahahaha~ tot i scared most guys away hahaha~ but no lor... i dunno lor.... then she say i bluff.... she say i blushing, but i was sneezing.... haha~ caught me off-guard, suddenly ask mi if i like him... i was like dots..... no lor..... but she dun believe.... haiz.... wad to do? hahaha~ but seriously tt is like so far frm my mind now... i juz want to get e a's out of e way b4 i think of other things.... yupz.... anw, i dun think i'll be entering into any r/s soon.... i learnt some things, like how love is not enough.... its not enough if im e one who is committed, who trusts but e other doesnt... its not enough tt im e only one who's willing to give my all.... so yah....i prolly wont be getting into one fer a long time... even if i did like tt guy it wont be enough if i cant feel secure.... haha~ guess my phobia of having to go thru pain is worse now.... oh well....

come to think of it, the thing tt hurt e most when he decided to break off wasnt tt he din like me anymore... in fact if it was juz tt i think it might be easier for me.... but wad hurt e most was realizing tt he din trust me, tt he wasnt ready, tt he didnt want to commit, tt knowing he didnt want to commit, he still dragged me into it.... it made it seem like wadeva he said then was a pack of lies.... it made it seem like he trivilized e whole thing, made it sth so simple, sth not worth any effort... dont worry, im not crying... i dont feel anything now, which is gd.... all i feel is a sense of lost, cos i lost a friend as well.... ppl who look at us prob go bull-shit, but i know e truth. and e truth is i lost a friend too.... oh well... but since he made tt choice, so be it. i cant do anything abt it. im juz happy to not be crying or anything rite now... maybe its e exams.... haha.... too occupied w e a's le.... maybe its xiao chian and e kitties... kekeke~ or maybe im juz turning into a les.... wahahaha~

anw, after lunch, went back to mug.... at 2 plus, idayu,yana,zarifah left for their paper.... then tt wan and gang entertaining everyone else.... so noisy haha~ after awhile, saw desmond, then he and his fran study w me.... yah then saw mk too.... looks like both of em woke up late todae.... tt desmond super lame lah.... cannot stand him... u know how he spell recognise? recGOnise... hahaha.... oh no.... now guys cant spell as well... hahaha~

studied until 5, chased out of lib cos closing... went home w tr.... now it feels weird not having samurai x ard....

kies tt all fer todae... byez!