watched the hours today. such a hauntingly beautiful film. its really good. an honest portrayal of the psyche of a woman. how we have to uphold an image of ourselves, an image of happiness n confidance in front of others, when really, all we want to do is cry. take for example the character of julianne moore. a housewife in what seems to be a perfect family life, like what her friend kitty says, you aren't a woman until you have kids. she not only has a lovely son, but is also pregnant with her second child. but what the people dont know is she's depressed, she's not happy, sth is bugging her. ironically, only her son seems to know. n the parts where she hides in a corner, crying, tugs at the heart and makes u think, how true it is. then there is mrs dalloway, or rather clarissa, whose life may seem perfect n she looks like a happy person, always throwing parties, but actually its a facade to hide the emptiness she feels inside. n of course virginia wolf, by the brilliant nicole kidman, makes this movie all the more endearing to watch. her portrayal of virgina is so real. the voices in the head.... she's not insane, just depressed. but she doesnt survive it. like i said, a brilliant film about woman and life.

went back to jj today. watched rugby match against pj. we lost. pj touchdown in the last minute. we lost by 2 pts. damn it. might not make it to semis. sigh. oh well... what to do. can only hope they win ny n rj or pj loses to ny. sigh.

had a long talk w jinyi today. was surprised when he came to me n told me his probs. that poor guy going through a rough patch right now. wow. we talked for like 3 plus hours straight. hahas. then kinda surprised cos we dun usually talk like this one. usually is like yaya down there. but today he come talk to me, and i can only listen and advice. all i can is this: jinyi, if u ever read this, u can only sort yourself out. no one else can do it for u. u decide ur priorities. i stick by what i said. she is she, ur studies is ur studies. dont let her control your life. dont ruin ur future like this. im sure u know wad i mean. :)

n then, feli also have her own probs. sigh. feli, i told u not to get too involved le. but u always say its not serious. actually i could tell u're gonna sink in deep if u continue this way. look what u've gotten urself into. honestly, i dunno wad to do le. can only tell u honestly tt u'll hurt urself in the end, either way. be prepared for the worst ba.

sigh. love. something we cant live without, yet a potent for danger. why do we fall in love, when we know there's nothing to catch us? why do we belief and want it so much, when we knew it'll end in tears? love - it starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, n ends with a tear. better off without it. at least i'll know not what pain is, and wouldnt have to go through it again. seeing my friends suffer reminds me of then. but i live in the now, n the future. * u always end up getting hurt, that's why they call it a crush* *we fall cos it makes us happy, but when we have fallen, we cry. tt's why it's called falling in love. there's nothing there to catch u when u fall*

-jaded-