kingdom of heaven is opening soon. who wants to watch with me? cos that guy who has initially promised to go with me about 1 month ago apparently has made plans to watch with others now. he forgot about me. n it pisses me off, cos it gives the feeling that i am so not important to the point that he has forgotten about me. what's the big deal, u say. the big deal is this: if i can shelve aside plans for my friends, u shd do the same for me too. the reason u gave, that so many people ask u to watch, n so u have to go with them, is not an excuse. hello? i have friends too, and i turned them down becos we decided to go together, remember? oh wait. i forgot. im not impotant. my wrong.

am i being unresonable. i dont see how. is it wrong to feel pissed? i dont think so. if it was the first time, perhaps u can be forgiven. but sad to say, it isnt. and sadder to say, u have not changed one bit. it has always been like this, hasnt it? ask urself, how many times have u done this to me? im upset, and i am disappointed in u. honestly, i would ask u to fuck off if not for that promise i gave u. but i tried, and u arent trying. do u know what is the saddest thing of all? the realisation that even when we were together back then some time last yr, u did the same too. i guess u've forgotten. u blew me off time and again for one thing or other, n "im sorry, i forgot" is not a decent explanation nor an acceptable apology anymore. it may be then, but it is not so now. u see, im not that nice anymore. its gotten to a point where i am sick and tired of having to deal with seemingly gd friends like u who constantly forget that i exist just because some other human being wants to book u too. and u know what is the worst thing? u honestly thought that i was joking with u? seriously, u still dare to joke with me? u thought that i was actually pretending to be angry with u? I AM NOT PRETENDING. get this clear. i cannot be the least bothered with u anymore. im tired of this ok? friends like to feel appreciated once in a while too. i do not exist for the sole purpose of making u happy whenever u feel u need it. that is not the defination of friendship. if u want to know, go check the dictionary.

being nice in this damned world is no longer a virtue. its called "stupidity". and alas, people like u dont deserve a single bit of this "stupidity" of mine anymore. u piss me off. dont come to me with an apology, because, i will tell u this : apology unaccepted! until u decide that u can treat me as a human, dont come and look for me. i am not your dog to do your bidding whenever u want me to. i have feelings too! dammnit.

tell me this: have u ever seen me and treated me as a friend, or am i just someone whom u turn to WHENEVER U FEEL LIKE IT?

-you always forget about me-