cold war. while in m'sia, celebrating chinese new yr. my parents. sigh... all over the issue of going back to ipoh. mum wants to go back for a night, dad doesnt want. dad wants it to b a day trip, cos he wants to come back to penang. his reason? cos the kids dont like going back to ipoh. excuse me sir, but i for one never said i dont like to go back to ipoh. i like to go back to ipoh and penang, and while we go back to penang often, i feel closer to my ipoh cousins than my penang ones, and i definitely would like to spend more time getting to know my ipoh cousins better. it's quite frustrating only seeing them for 2 days and a night, just when you get down to talking, and catching up, and getting to know one another better, u have to go off again. unfair? yes. alas, dad doesnt think so. selfish? i'd hate to say it, but i think he is. the best answer i ever heard my brother give regarding this issue is,"I dont like going back to ipoh, but they are still my relatives!" indeed. since we come back every year to see our relatives in penang, is it too much to ask dad to give up some time and go back to ipoh so that mum and us can spend time with our relatives there as well? and he doesnt want to compromise. if it were a day trip, i feel that yes, we should leave early, and leave after dinner. but, my dad feels that going back just for lunch is enough. what kind of freaking logic is that?!!! if we leave at say 9am in the morning(since dad also wants to have breakfast in penang), or most likely, 10am, we will reach ipoh at ard 11.30am. go for lunch, 12pm. his plan is to leave at 5pm. 12 to 5pm, that's just 5 hours! what can you do in 5 freaking hours???? sometimes, ppl just dont use their freaking brains. humans are selfish. i pray that i will not end up being such a selfish individual. now, my parents are having a cold war. we were supposed to go back today, but didnt, cos dad didnt want to. dad says friday, but we cant overnight, and we cant stay for dinner. so now mum doesnt want to go back, cos what's the fucking point in only going back for 5 hours???!!! give me, i also dont want! then have to rush back to pack n all so that we will be ready to leave penang for singapore on sat. jeez... n my penang relatives aren't exactly blind so..... they know abt it. a few of us girls/women were talking abt it, and they were asking me to help solve the problem. me? my dad's a freaking mcp, he doesnt listen to me! he doesnt even listen to my brother. we both got yelled at by him, and were short of getting slapped, i bet. honestly, i dont care if he slaps me, but it'll only result in a worsened cold war. there has got to be another way! im worried for my mum. she didnt even have lunch today, and she just withdrew herself from everyone. she doesnt even talk to me or my brother! just short answers. sigh... this is sickening. n worrisome. isnt cny supposed to be for reunions? some kind of a reunion this is.

love is just bullshit. life is just better off without it. a significant other? cut the crap and just leave me fucking alone. i'd rather spend my time and money adopting a child and spending time with him/her. it's much more worth it this way.