i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them i hate them! why do they always have to hurt me, to always compare me with someone else, to always belittle me? why? what have i ever done in my life, or my previous life, to hurt them? why do they always have to find excuses for him? for his behaviour, and in the process, blame me for it? what did I ever do? i wasn't even like him! and yet, they find comfort in thinking that i was just like him! and even when im not, they give excuses as to why i wasnt, just to make his behaviour all the more acceptable and normal! why must i be the one under fire when i dont even do the fucking things he does? why? am i such a non-human to them? everything i worked for, it doesnt mean anything to them.

i hate my life. i hate it. i wish i could run away. i want to run away, to go somewhere far far away. or maybe, to just die. then i wouldnt have to live with this dreadful knowledge anymore.

the biggest mistake - nay, crime, i've ever made in my life was to be born a girl.