it is 9pm. my project group members were supposed to come and meet at 8pm, but not even half of them are online. like seriously, who the hell do they take me for? first off, they last minute come and pile more workload on me, even when they know i have other essays and another project going on as well, and then when i stayed up until the wee hours of the morning to do the project, most save one did not even fucking bother to contribute to the discussion or even help me. like im asking them to give me their life ! im just asking for some help, some fucking consideration, but they cant even fucking care! im wondering why the hell should i care, except that my grades would get seriously affected, and if it wouldnt even affect my grades i wouldnt even give a shit about it since obviously, they've given up on it. but hello! u asked me to take over your parts, i agreed to it cos i thought u'd done some work and u promised to help me with it, but when i asked for help last night, you didnt even fucking bother, heck no, you even dared to ask me to figure it out myself! and then, you had the GALL to read through and start complaining about the quality of the work! FUCK YOU AND GO TO HELL! rot for all i care. i swear, if i were to see either one of them right now, especially one particular person, i would cause serious bodily harm to said person. the person better be thanking his lucky stars that i am not beside him this very moment and that i do not have my shinai or bokken or a weapon of some sort with me.

my mum had to literally pry me away and force me to sleep last night, but even then i didnt bother. i wanted to finish the stuff asap so that they could read through it and edit and have a say, but what the hell, first, they dont even bother turning up for this meeting, and second, the one who does doesnt even have any constructive comments to say! and then when i hand it up, they'll prob start complaining and giving me crap and i will honestly stuff a shovel down their throats if they so much as dare to whine. or make a sound, for that matter. im so disgusted and disappointed with them man. i cant even be bothered to be pissed anymore. just plain DISGUSTED. hello! i need to study too! i need a life too! i've got exams coming too! i need to fucking get through university too! im sacrificing my social life, my sleep, my studies and my HEALTH for this project and there you are twiddling your thumbs and not giving two hoots abt it. i have half a mind to submit the project with only my name and another girl's on it, cos only that other girl bothered to ask me to give her some stuff and ACTUALLY help, although sadly she's not online now.

grr. what is WRONG with these people man! they love to disturb me for meetings and what-nots when a) on days i have trainings and b) when im busy rushing an assignment. so im sorry i wasnt so productive during those meetings, but hey, i told u way beforehand and it's not my fault that u like to hold impromptu meetings, so dont assume that just because u're free, im free too. hell no, i am NOT free. but i did bother to find out what went on n despite my business, bothered to help out and now that im free, i took on almost the entire fucking thing and did it asap and to the best of my ability and here u are not even bothering about it! what the fuck man. what the fuck.

thank goodness lit doesnt have so many projects, nor are any of them majoring in lit. if not, i would prob kill one of them if i have to work with said person again, or just commit seppuku to save myself the agony. seriously.