im feeling so sad now, it hurts. from the shit in my life, and cos suyu is going to leave for japan really soon. and michelle will be following soon after. sigh.

the shit in my life, im sure no one wants to know. or be bothered. so i shall spare all of you.

im going to miss suyu so much. havent really been able to meet up with her since she graduated from NUS and started working. even when we did, there wasn't much time to really talk to each other. and now, she is leaving. for 3-5 years. and she has to take a flight that is at the ungodly hour of 6am in the morning on a sunday. how oh how are we supposed to send her off with no trains and buses? my parents will kill me if i even think of taking a cab down. maybe i should just stayover in school tomorrow. then i can cab down.

i think back to those times where we had so much fun together, those unofficial kendo sessions, the joking, bitching, laughing, the immense support i recieved, and still am recieving from her, everything from kendo to beyond kendo. and i feel sad that the amount of time we had to really really get to know one another was so short, and now she is leaving for japan. siew, mun wei and myself are going to miss her so much.

suyu, you must take care of yourself ok? im sure you will do well there! i have faith in you. ganbatte! and make sure you come and visit us whenever you can! we will gladly jigeiko with you! haha~



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it is so hard to keep on smiling when you just feel like dying inside. fighting from the abyss, that i am. but oh, it is just so tempting.