i am so tried of my life. the life i lead at home. whoever said home is a happy safe haven should go shoot himself in the foot. the only time i'm ever happy here is when i am alone in the house. really. i cant wait for my stayover tmr where i will be free of overbearing and unfair parents. call me immatured if you want, but i really am at the end of my patience. it's running so thin, i will snap at any moment. i am this close to bitting the head off the next person who comes and give me attitude.

what the hell is wrong with my parents, someone please tell me. do i have a "come and bite my head off" sign on my forehead? what, did i like do something horrific in my past life? to suffer so much in this life? if you dont know me, dont you dare judge me by what i am typing in here, and by don't know, i mean don't know the full extent of the shit i went through since nursery until now. i have every right to complain and if you do not agree, get lost. and if you are one of those unwelcomed prying eyes, get lost too. i'm sick and tired of having to deal with you.

sorry, maybe i am a little short of fuse these few days. well, beg my pardon, because i am so bloody stressed with rag and matric fair, and what some idiot said today is not helping matters. im sorry im not like being more proactive in helping wenhui out with soft tech planning, im sorry i SUCK at doing such planning that those ideas i did contribute are not used in the endd (i SUCK, what can i say) and i'm sorry i come across as some selfish bitch who dumps stuff on her. the truth of the matter is, i dont even know 95% of the stuff she has planned with the two artists, cos she didnt tell me. i only know what she asks me to do for that particular day. she knows that i am busy planning for matric fair as well as involved in cmad, and so i honestly dont have so much time on my hands to really help plan soft tech as well, unless i want to end up killing myself by going entirely without sleep. say what you want, you dont know fucking shit of what i have to do, so just shut up and leave me the hell alone. stop ruining my reputation and announcing to the world that you think i am being lazy because you have NO right to. my kendo captain can be understanding, why the hell cant you. just fuck off!

and really, i should start buying invinsible ear plugs to shut my mum and dad out once and for all. irritating buggers are really getting on my nerves. what bloody bull about blasting music and tv when they are the ones blasting their mouths in the middle of the night. whatever.

and my neighbours. honestly. before you complain, take a look at yourself. blasting music early in the morning and attempting to sing opera damn loudly (when obviously, you cant sing for shit) is a huge no no. and what's so wrong with people that they cant renovate their houses during the school holidays, but have to do it during school time/exam time? go kill yourselves, please.

i am a ticking time bomb. go figure.