hmm.... yesterday went to westmall to eat bk w lay ping.... then walk ard.... bought a new hair clip.... wanted to buy bellefire's cd, but they dun have. oh well.... anw, yvonne going to help me buy when she goes down to hmv. yay!!! haha.... so sian. music shops nowadays mainly feature artists which are popular.... those tt arent dont get featured much, they dont even sell their cds.... so sad. tsk tsk.

watched singapore idol results juz now.... maia was out... what the hell is wrong w e ppl man..... talent is being let go.... first it was jessea, now its maia.... who next? olinda? seriously, of e rest left, olinda is e one who has the most talent. she is e only one who can REALLY SING. plus she's daring. maia can sing too.... both olinda and maia r what makes this show interesting, cos only e both of em r daring. olinda dares to reinvent herself, maia adds spice and attitude. my dad says maia is prolly out cos she's a single mum, and many ppl dont approve of tt. sad to say, it sure is true. so many of my friends dont like maia cos they dont approve of her personal life. HELLO, this is a talent show, since when do personal backgrds come into the picture? can these ppl stop being so shallow? tt's HER LIFE, who r u to ctrl it? this show is meant to be based on talent, but unfortunately, many ppl dont know what the hell 'talent' means. even e judges agree. oh well. cant say im surprised. juz look at e sort of grps/ singers tt r popular in e music scene. bands like f4 r like seriously trash. very rarely r talented artists credited/recognised. jay chou is an exception (surprise surprise). well, looks like only olinda is left to provide real talent here. and again, many ppl i know dont like olinda cos of her looks. so what if she doesnt look as gd as maia or jessea or whoever. SHE CAN SING and hell she is so much better than e rest. she is in a league of her own. if olinda gets kick out, i guess i can deduce there is seriously sth wrong w e voters. they muz be deaf or they need a lesson on what talent is exactly. and if olinda is out, tt's it. i wont watch sg idol anymore. what's e pt? only untalented ppl will win e competition, real talents will sadly be let go. seriously, it'll be a disgrace at e world idol. think abt it. at least i can console myself tt i did vote for these talented ppl, sadly it wasnt enough for maia to stay on. oh well. i'd buy her's and olinda's albums(if they do have one and i hope they will) over e others anytime.

yah, and my hp juz got confiscated,again. oh well. i cant be bothered anymore. want to confiscate than confiscate lor. who cares. juz provide me w an alt alarm clock and an alt way of contacting my teachers for consultation lor. anw, no hp means they cant track me. haha. i can run away, and they'll have no way in which to contact me. maybe i shd run away, get away frm this hellhole. i cant wait till im 21 and i can move out, really. im getting very sick of this place. this biaseness and shit. im beginning to dislike them more and more. push me some more and i'll hate them all. really. i dont even feel shock tt i feel this way. perhaps i always knew one day it would reach this stage. oh well, juz a few more yrs to freedom. ive waited this long, i can wait some more. and then, i can finally have my own life. have a life. live. yippee! i cant wait. they can juz sit there and eat their words.

call me unfilial if u want. label me and slam me if u will. i dont care anymore. tt's my life. if u think u know me, or know what i go and live through, u are seriously wrong. not even my own family knows me, they think they do, but they dont. cos they always get it wrong, but i cant be bothered to tell them, since being silent is e only way to shut them up. so yah. u dont know me, so dont judge me. u dont know what i put up w, wat i go through, what i do, so juz shut up and fuck off. keep ur ass out of my face. keep ur comments to urself. thank you. now, bugger off and dont come back!

shadow - ashlee simpson

I was six years old
When my parents went away
I was stuck inside a broken life
I couldn't wish away
She was beautiful
She had everything and more
And my escape was hiding out and running for the door

Somebody listen please
It used to be so hard being me
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
My chains are finally free
Don't feel sorry for me

All the days collided
One less perfect than the next
I was stuck inside someone else's life and always second best
Oh, I love you now 'cause now I realize
That it's safe outside to come alive in my identity

So if you're listening
There's so much more to me you haven't seen
Living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
Living in a nightmare
A never-ending sleep
But now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry-

Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Mother, sister, father, sister, mother
Everything's cool now
Oh, my life is good
I've got more than anyone should
Oh, my life is good
And the past in the past

I was living in the shadow
Of someone else's dream
Trying to find a hand to hold but every touch felt cold to me
I'm living in a new day
I'm living it for me
And now that I am wide awake
Then I can finally be
Don't feel sorry for me
Don't feel sorry, don't feel sorry for me

Living in, living in, living in the shadow
Living in, living in, living in a new day