ok, from where i left off from my malaysia trip first....

sunday, the last day: i must say, the shopping i did the day before was a really lucky good one! why? cos 1) my dear old white sandals died on me after lunch today; 2) my trusty pink purse died on me too; 3) my good handy backpack (my bro's actually) died on me at the airport. -_-"

woke up late on sunday, so there wasn't breakfast. what we had, was brunch. brunch was good old penang mee goreng! yummylicious! haha~ after that, we headed to the huge pet shop to look at lil animals! aww! the puppies are so cuuuute! i declare that i've fallen in love with the shih tzu (sp)! it is so cute! and those sad-looking puppy eyes... awwwww. i know that it is a really playful breed of dog, but aw! so cute! i want onnnnnnne!!!

we looked at the fishes in the aquarium after that. oh! i think the ghost fish is pretty! really! so cool! and and and, there's this funny looking fish with a long nose which it keeps sticking out of the water! haha~ so cute! and and and, the clown fish (the real ocean clown fish, not those pale-looking aquarium ones to raise as pets) and yellow-tail dorsel (?) fish are so pretty too! haha~

considering that my sandal broke in between after lunch and before the visit to the pet shop, i was "limping" around the pet shop with a broken sandal. wahaa.

after that, dad dropped my mum and myself off at gurney plaza for more shopping! and since my bro love to wear my slippers so much, i made him return me my brown slippers which he was wearing and he had to wear my white sandals. wahaha~ he'll be at my uncle's house anyway, so it doesnt matter. heh.

bought more stuff at gurney. i bought a tee from body glove, corduroy (sp) pants from giordano, er cheong sam from the reject shop! haha. another national dress i have! hehe. the cheong sam is really beautiful too! china silk with hand-embroidered design! and it was only RM 69.90! (which is about $35). heh.

rushed to airport after that. thanks to a jam, we didnt manage to have porridge for dinner. instead, had some food at the airport. gave dad and bro the most food! haha. i had soup. :) soup ish good! haha! my dinner!!

reached sg at about 10.30pm? bumped into zhiyu at the airport! he didnt see me though. haha. anyway, when he found out he was rather surprised. lol. such a coincidence. reached home at about midnight.

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tuesday, 12th. kendo camp day 1. died during first training session. arms turned to jelly. but it felt great to know that i didnt give up.

afternoon session was a little better. damien sensei didn't kill us with that session with funny exercises he came up with during the first session. hehe.

night session: everything was going alright until the last 10 minutes. i don't know if you could call it a sprain, but my right ankle gave way when i was having jigeiko (during songkyo (sp) rather). forced to fall out of training to rest it. oh, and my knee was acting up too. so i didnt know if i should place my weight on my left leg, or my right leg. i think that was why my ankle gave way. cos i have a tendency to place my weight on the right leg when i can, so as not to strain the left knee. now i have 2 legs strained, and no idea which one to give a break to. -_-"

wednesday: 2nd day, and i fall ill. woke up, looked at my breakfast, puked. hoorah. what a wonderful day. i didnt get to sleep either cos my corridor was so freaking noisy, with music blaring, doors banging, people talking at all hours of the night. grrr. so i was grumpy and not happy. went to see the doctor after the morning session. gave me medicine for the stomach. banned from eating oily food. apparently, i have wind in the tummy. was under strict orders to not participate in anymore training sessions. haiz. made appointment with the counsellor too, so all my friends bugging me to see the counsellor, you can relax now. settled lunch for my dear kendokas hard at work. lugged 3 bags full of lunch food to hall. that was when i realized i really have no arm power. must take so many breaks on the journey back to catch my breath and give my arms a rest. sigh...

thursday: i had to miss the morning and afternoon sessions for a sep pre-departure briefing, for which the speaker came in 15 MINUTES LATE. grrrrr.... i nearly fell asleep waiting for him! and, i could have gone for the morning session and attend the briefing on time! grrr. the later portion of the briefing was also a rather waste of time. stuff like, "you must not cope yourself in your room all the time. you must go out and engage with people. you must try out the local cuisine. blah blah blah" must tell us meh? do we look like idiots? i mean, we are university students for goodness sake! this is why singapore will never progress. stop treating people like they are 5 year olds who consistently need to be told what to do! and the speaker kept repeating the same points over and over and over and over again and again and again! argh.

i joined in the night session! yay! finally! last session was an all-out session, so it was a killer too. really admire my kendokas who stuck through all 9 sessions. i'm ashamed to say im tired, when they are the ones who are more shagged than me. i don't deserve to feel tired when i have not trained as much as they did. i don't deserve anything.

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when i reached home, the first thing i feedback to my mum was to not do the whole rushing thing again. it is so exhausting surviving on so little sleep, and having to pull out all the energy to go through the activities of the next day. i felt like a machine, going through hell week 2, then reading week, then exams smacked into 1 week, then rushing off to malaysia straight after, flung into the frenzy that is my cousin's wedding, visiting relatives and all, rushing back to singapore, rushing to prepare for camp, camp. perhaps that was why i fell ill. the culmination of the stress, the worry, the exhaustion that's been plaguing me for a month.

how weak. exhausted from all these when i should be exhausted from kendo, like my other kendokas. gah. how am i to improve, like that?

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today felt unreal. like i re-stepped into civilization, and suddenly have more time on my hands. suddenly, i don't have to study, don't have obligations to fulfill, don't have events to rush/see to. the only major activity i had today was to see my counsellor, but sorry folks, i don't want to reveal anything. i dont feel comfortable telling the counsellor about my problems and my past, and it was hard. i dont want to remember about my past, period. to me, they are best left locked up and forgotten. unfortunately, whatever it is, it seems to be the root of the problem. so... there.

the two bruises i got on my arm from kendo have joined together to form the letter 'S'. amazing. my right palm is swollen too. i wonder why.

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the next veronica mars episode airs only on jan 23rd. kill me now. please. whyyyyyy must we wait so long for a good show, and not wait at all for a perfectly lousy show? whyyy??? i havent loved a tv show for so long since..... buffy. i blame yalan for this obsession. wahaha~ nah, thanks yalan for introducing the show! now i keep wondering who on earth shot the dean. my goodness. that episode was like, on the edge of the seat the entire 45minutes. i did guess who the rapist is correctly though! ding ding ding! haha. well actually, the rapist and his accomplice were suspects in my mind, but the shock, and surprise, was that the two were actually in cahoots with one another because there was simply no hints previously to show that the two were even friends. until that zoom-in on the photo... ah... vm. investigator wannabes should watch the show and see if they can solve the puzzle before vm does. haha.

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sep updates: i've gotten my accommodation! now waiting for the hard copy of the liscense agreement to arrive so that i can sign and send it back to confirm my accommodation. hoo! *excited*

wenhui's leaving on 5th jan; faith (small) is leaving soon too... can't remb when. i think danielle is leaving on the 27th dec? thereabouts? and alex is going back to aussie coming tues... ahhh. so many trips to the airport to be made!

ok, that's all for now. bye!